I LOVE going on vacations but let me tell you they sure throw off routine and then it takes forever to get back in your routine when you get back from vacation lol
Each new year we grow and change a little bit more and strive to become a better us and better spouse and better mother each day.
Here are a few resolutions I've come up with, I love the new year because it makes us think about the things we want to do better on. If we don't do them this new year we've always got the next year.
Less time on devices and TV
Get healthy not just lose weight but be stronger and have more energy to play with my boys
Lear to love God more
Drink 8 8oz of water daily!
Try to be positive
Have at least one date a month with Spencer
Put Isaac back on his food routine with no snacks
Also trying to communicate my feelings more...can't guarantee this one, I always say I will and I always fail at it but someday I will get it down
Trying to wake up at a certain time each morning and go to bed at a certain time each night
Our goals for Isaac is to potty train and take away the pacifier for night time (starting all this around age 2)
Our goals for Jackson is to move him into a crib in his own room (sometime around 3 months old) and the normal like crawling and walking by the end of the year
Have a Happy New Year!!
We probably will not be staying up until midnight, once you have kids, they wake you up enough during the night so you should go to bed as early as they do lol
I like my sleep =]
If I was still in High School or College I would be ALL up for it, I loved hanging with friends and loved ones up until the new year =]
I will love it even more when my kids are old enough to stay up with us
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Monday, December 22, 2014
Christmas Spirit
Saturday night my wonderful husband took me to the Piano Guys concert.... AMAZING!! They are more popular as of these last few years and this was their first tour.
They are very funny and super talented. I was laughing and singing and feeling the spirit. These are LDS (Mormon) middle aged dads but they were great!
What as nice is you had a mixture of fun and a mixture of spiritual especially since it was mainly a Christmas concert.
Check them out on YouTube if you don't know who they are (The Piano Guys)
One of their performances almost brought me to tears. It was Angels We Have Heard on High, and it was SO LOUD but I felt the Spirit SO strong and it was unbelievable.
Then on Sunday our Ward always does a musical Sacrament Meeting on the Sunday before Christmas.... it's my favorite Sacrament meeting =]
That was always a beautiful day, one youth group sang "Come unto Christ", it was a beautiful song!
And of course the Piano/Organ Duet to O Holy Night =]
Then in Relief Society the speaker told us to close our eyes and listen to scriptures about Mary & Joseph and put ourselves in their shoes. Now what really got me was the opening where she set the scene for us, not the scripture reading.
She said remember how scared she must of been, no doctors, no medicine, no pads for after delivery, and no comfy beds.
And it just really hit me, because recently I had a baby boy and i'm pretty young but not as young as Mary was (about 16), I was 22 and 23 when I had a baby.
Thankfully she had a wonderful husband there with her to help.
Now I know the pain of delivery but only to 9cm contraction pains not actually having the baby with pain. And I got to wondering where was her mom? I don't know what I would of done without my mom especially the first time. She had kids before she helped me through my breathing through contractions and talked to distract me.
And I am very grateful for her. So where was Mary's mom what did she think of all of this and did she help her?
Let me also point out I was VERY grateful for my husband, Spencer, as well. He's not so great with the actual delivering baby part but he stands by or sits close by and it's just a comfort to have him there even though he can't do a whole bunch. There are people there that know what they are doing and can help me.
With my second baby my mom had to watch Isaac but she stayed with me until Spencer got there, and I would of done fairly well even if she wasn't there but it was good to have her close by and when I saw Spencer finally there I breathed a sigh of relief just knowing he was there and he held my hand when I needed him too.
And I can imagine that Angels or Heavenly Father helped Mary & Joseph prepare and know what to expect and I can just see Joseph holding her hand and just being there for her. Even though he couldn't of fully understand what she was going through.
(Side note supposedly back in the day labor & delivery wasn't as painful as it has become now so it's possible she wasn't in tons of pain or really scared but we weren't there so honestly we don't know all of it)
I would love to talk to Mary about her thoughts and memories of that moment in her life though, that would be an interesting story.
Anyways it was all a very great Sunday on the spiritual side of it all and thought I would share. It may not seem like Christmas much this year but still an amazing time of year.
I hope everyone has a very merry Christmas and a happy new year
They are very funny and super talented. I was laughing and singing and feeling the spirit. These are LDS (Mormon) middle aged dads but they were great!
What as nice is you had a mixture of fun and a mixture of spiritual especially since it was mainly a Christmas concert.
Check them out on YouTube if you don't know who they are (The Piano Guys)
One of their performances almost brought me to tears. It was Angels We Have Heard on High, and it was SO LOUD but I felt the Spirit SO strong and it was unbelievable.
Then on Sunday our Ward always does a musical Sacrament Meeting on the Sunday before Christmas.... it's my favorite Sacrament meeting =]
That was always a beautiful day, one youth group sang "Come unto Christ", it was a beautiful song!
And of course the Piano/Organ Duet to O Holy Night =]
Then in Relief Society the speaker told us to close our eyes and listen to scriptures about Mary & Joseph and put ourselves in their shoes. Now what really got me was the opening where she set the scene for us, not the scripture reading.
She said remember how scared she must of been, no doctors, no medicine, no pads for after delivery, and no comfy beds.
And it just really hit me, because recently I had a baby boy and i'm pretty young but not as young as Mary was (about 16), I was 22 and 23 when I had a baby.
Thankfully she had a wonderful husband there with her to help.
Now I know the pain of delivery but only to 9cm contraction pains not actually having the baby with pain. And I got to wondering where was her mom? I don't know what I would of done without my mom especially the first time. She had kids before she helped me through my breathing through contractions and talked to distract me.
And I am very grateful for her. So where was Mary's mom what did she think of all of this and did she help her?
Let me also point out I was VERY grateful for my husband, Spencer, as well. He's not so great with the actual delivering baby part but he stands by or sits close by and it's just a comfort to have him there even though he can't do a whole bunch. There are people there that know what they are doing and can help me.
With my second baby my mom had to watch Isaac but she stayed with me until Spencer got there, and I would of done fairly well even if she wasn't there but it was good to have her close by and when I saw Spencer finally there I breathed a sigh of relief just knowing he was there and he held my hand when I needed him too.
And I can imagine that Angels or Heavenly Father helped Mary & Joseph prepare and know what to expect and I can just see Joseph holding her hand and just being there for her. Even though he couldn't of fully understand what she was going through.
(Side note supposedly back in the day labor & delivery wasn't as painful as it has become now so it's possible she wasn't in tons of pain or really scared but we weren't there so honestly we don't know all of it)
I would love to talk to Mary about her thoughts and memories of that moment in her life though, that would be an interesting story.
Anyways it was all a very great Sunday on the spiritual side of it all and thought I would share. It may not seem like Christmas much this year but still an amazing time of year.
I hope everyone has a very merry Christmas and a happy new year
Sleepless nights
This isn't a post on lying in bed not being able to sleep, even though I've had one or two of those nights. This is about being a parent and you don't have a choice by how much or how little of sleep you are given each night.
Because I am a stay at home mom I am able to snag a nap here and there or sleep in a little longer depending on when Isaac gets up and i'm very grateful for that. I LOVE my sleep!
The past two-three nights we have gotten TERRIBLE sleep because of Isaac and partly because of Jackson.
Between Isaac getting teeth, not feeling 100%, being hungry but not eating much and not getting enough sleep he has NOT been going to bed very well and we've been up until midnight sometimes with him and sometimes up and down through out the night.
It's very hard especially when your the mom and can't seem to comfort or help your child, especially since he wont cuddle with me even when he is sick. Sometimes he will sit on my lap to watch part of a show but he wont stay there for long. He has been loving daddy more lately which is sad but I love their father son bond.
It's funny because I think as parents we need sleep to help our children but when you become parents that's one thing you lack the most lol
I'm extra emotional when I don't get enough sleep and that doesn't help being patient when your child is being cranky and whiny and screaming. Thankfully Spencer is great at helping take care of the boys and we will trade of with the boys.
But most of all its just very hard when you don't know how to make them feel better or whats bothering them.
I am thankful for the gospel in that it helps when we can give blessings to help comfort or help heal our loved ones.
I felt bad because yesterday was a very emotional day for me and I think lack of sleep and being a women knocks your emotions all over the place and it's not fun because you just cant seem to control it.
I felt the spirit quite a bit today especially at church and that was amazing and then I was sad and angry for like fifty different reasons through out the day, some were probably really stupid but they upset me during that day.
And it seemed no matter what I kept running into an upsetting situation but I didn't know how to express myself without crying so I just never said anything because who likes sobbing like a baby in front of someone for a stupid reason even if its a family member. I've never been a fan of that so that's why I usually never say when i'm upset over something lol
This was a very all over the place post but the conclude: get as much sleep as possible especially if your a women and a mother lol
Thank heavens Spencer is off all this week!
Because I am a stay at home mom I am able to snag a nap here and there or sleep in a little longer depending on when Isaac gets up and i'm very grateful for that. I LOVE my sleep!
The past two-three nights we have gotten TERRIBLE sleep because of Isaac and partly because of Jackson.
Between Isaac getting teeth, not feeling 100%, being hungry but not eating much and not getting enough sleep he has NOT been going to bed very well and we've been up until midnight sometimes with him and sometimes up and down through out the night.
It's very hard especially when your the mom and can't seem to comfort or help your child, especially since he wont cuddle with me even when he is sick. Sometimes he will sit on my lap to watch part of a show but he wont stay there for long. He has been loving daddy more lately which is sad but I love their father son bond.
It's funny because I think as parents we need sleep to help our children but when you become parents that's one thing you lack the most lol
I'm extra emotional when I don't get enough sleep and that doesn't help being patient when your child is being cranky and whiny and screaming. Thankfully Spencer is great at helping take care of the boys and we will trade of with the boys.
But most of all its just very hard when you don't know how to make them feel better or whats bothering them.
I am thankful for the gospel in that it helps when we can give blessings to help comfort or help heal our loved ones.
I felt bad because yesterday was a very emotional day for me and I think lack of sleep and being a women knocks your emotions all over the place and it's not fun because you just cant seem to control it.
I felt the spirit quite a bit today especially at church and that was amazing and then I was sad and angry for like fifty different reasons through out the day, some were probably really stupid but they upset me during that day.
And it seemed no matter what I kept running into an upsetting situation but I didn't know how to express myself without crying so I just never said anything because who likes sobbing like a baby in front of someone for a stupid reason even if its a family member. I've never been a fan of that so that's why I usually never say when i'm upset over something lol
This was a very all over the place post but the conclude: get as much sleep as possible especially if your a women and a mother lol
Thank heavens Spencer is off all this week!
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Forgetting Pain
You've probably all heard that once you've had a baby you forget about the pain you went through to have that baby or else you wouldn't have another baby.
There are a few thoughts I have to this saying.
1. I have NOT forgotten that pain, it is still there in my mind
2. I think we "forget" in the sense that we are SO glad we don't feel it anymore that we are paying attention to how much better we feel. Because I hate the way I feel when i'm sick and always "forget" how I feel when i'm sick because I appreciate how good I DO feel when i'm not sick.
I don't think its based all on pregnancy/delivery pain because we don't often dwell on the bad pains we feel when we aren't feeling them.
And then just on a side note even though I remember that pain I think we "forget" the pain because of the overwhelming love we have for our newborn baby we now see. And I would go through that pain all over again to have more children...I've already done it twice lol
(I thought I had more to say on this matter but I guess I didn't) lol
There are a few thoughts I have to this saying.
1. I have NOT forgotten that pain, it is still there in my mind
2. I think we "forget" in the sense that we are SO glad we don't feel it anymore that we are paying attention to how much better we feel. Because I hate the way I feel when i'm sick and always "forget" how I feel when i'm sick because I appreciate how good I DO feel when i'm not sick.
I don't think its based all on pregnancy/delivery pain because we don't often dwell on the bad pains we feel when we aren't feeling them.
And then just on a side note even though I remember that pain I think we "forget" the pain because of the overwhelming love we have for our newborn baby we now see. And I would go through that pain all over again to have more children...I've already done it twice lol
(I thought I had more to say on this matter but I guess I didn't) lol
Monday, December 15, 2014
The emotions of a Mother
As individuals we always have at least one of "those days" where life just is not going well. But I feel once you become a mother you might have more of these lol I mean now you are responsible for keeping your babies alive daily!
I was watching an episode of How I met your Mother Season 8 episode 13: Band or DJ?
and there is a line where Lily says "Sometimes I wish I wasn't a mother and would pack a bag and leave and never come back" (not exact quote)
And it got me thinking... I've had this thought once or twice before. I hate to admit it but i'm sure you guys have had the thought at least once in your life time if not you i'm sure you will one day.
Mixed with maybe a bad day where your kid is just doing EVERYTHING to push your buttons or screaming/crying ALL day or you are just super emotional (I mean we are women lol) It could be for the littlest thing. You may notice I never post pictures of my kids crying or throwing a tantrum and that's because those are the things I don't want to dwell on or remember in the future, I want to remember all their sweet moments and smiling faces. (that's just me, doesn't mean your a bad person if you post those types of pictures)
There are just those days when you realize your life will never be the same as it used to be. I hate to say "your life is over" but in a way it is, more like your just ending a chapter of your life and starting a new one. Sometimes I wish I could just go travel or go out dancing late at night with my friends or just crazy things like that but I can't do that. But that's okay!
My point is I've had a day(s) like this but then there are those amazing days when you feel SO blessed! When you look at your children and can not believe that you grew those sweet babies inside you and now you are helping them learn new things and grow. And then you are SO proud of them because you see them doing something you have been trying to teach them. Or those silly things you realize they learned just because little kids watch everything you do.
Being a parent and growing up is not an easy task. It is THEE hardest job I've ever had but its THEE most amazing job I've ever had and I would never give it up. It has taught me SO much and there have been lots of ups and downs but the love I have for my children is SO great!
Just yesterday I was thinking that I love my kids so much that i'm always giving them LOTS of kisses. And I realized that's STILL not enough to express how much I love them. I just want to squeeze them and hold them ALL day and night!
I've always wanted to be a mother but no matter how many times I had been told motherhood is hard I still would of made the choice I made. And it still doesn't prepare you for all the emotions you feel once you become a mother.
But I have been blessed with an AMAZING husband who is the BEST Father to our little boys.
Isaac is my sweet loving boy who loves to laugh and Jackson is pretty chill (too young to know his personality just yet)
I was watching an episode of How I met your Mother Season 8 episode 13: Band or DJ?
and there is a line where Lily says "Sometimes I wish I wasn't a mother and would pack a bag and leave and never come back" (not exact quote)
And it got me thinking... I've had this thought once or twice before. I hate to admit it but i'm sure you guys have had the thought at least once in your life time if not you i'm sure you will one day.
Mixed with maybe a bad day where your kid is just doing EVERYTHING to push your buttons or screaming/crying ALL day or you are just super emotional (I mean we are women lol) It could be for the littlest thing. You may notice I never post pictures of my kids crying or throwing a tantrum and that's because those are the things I don't want to dwell on or remember in the future, I want to remember all their sweet moments and smiling faces. (that's just me, doesn't mean your a bad person if you post those types of pictures)
There are just those days when you realize your life will never be the same as it used to be. I hate to say "your life is over" but in a way it is, more like your just ending a chapter of your life and starting a new one. Sometimes I wish I could just go travel or go out dancing late at night with my friends or just crazy things like that but I can't do that. But that's okay!
My point is I've had a day(s) like this but then there are those amazing days when you feel SO blessed! When you look at your children and can not believe that you grew those sweet babies inside you and now you are helping them learn new things and grow. And then you are SO proud of them because you see them doing something you have been trying to teach them. Or those silly things you realize they learned just because little kids watch everything you do.
Being a parent and growing up is not an easy task. It is THEE hardest job I've ever had but its THEE most amazing job I've ever had and I would never give it up. It has taught me SO much and there have been lots of ups and downs but the love I have for my children is SO great!
Just yesterday I was thinking that I love my kids so much that i'm always giving them LOTS of kisses. And I realized that's STILL not enough to express how much I love them. I just want to squeeze them and hold them ALL day and night!
I've always wanted to be a mother but no matter how many times I had been told motherhood is hard I still would of made the choice I made. And it still doesn't prepare you for all the emotions you feel once you become a mother.
But I have been blessed with an AMAZING husband who is the BEST Father to our little boys.
Isaac is my sweet loving boy who loves to laugh and Jackson is pretty chill (too young to know his personality just yet)
my favorite picture of us together, like 3 weeks before I got pregnant lol
my 18 month old Isaac
my super cute 1 month old
they are bonding =]
my boys =]
Friday, November 28, 2014
A mothers worst nightmare
When you have kids you then always want to protect them from everything!! But you can't especially when once they start walking because they are going to explore you can't keep them locked up in a room. Even then unless it's a padded room they will always find a way to get hurt it's natural.
I would guess there are a lot of moms that's have certain fears or situations to never happen to their kids... Well one of mine came true on thanksgiving.
It's one of those memories I will probably never forget (maybe in time)
Every once in awhile the memory will pop in my head and I wanna burst into tears
We were in Idaho at my in laws new place and there were lots of kids and adults. We were all on the main floor most of the time. They do have these hard concrete or wood stairs covered in linoleum that go downstairs. There is a half door that keeps it closed off which is nice especially with little kids rubbing around.
I walked near the stairs with Jackson to get diapers for both the boys out of my bag and Isaac followed me.
It seemed like he wanted to go downstairs but I said no bud we aren't gonna go downstairs right now. I didn't bother to check if that stair door was closed because it wasn't in my eye sight an it's always been closed all day so I didn't think to worry.
I look back down at my bag trying to find the wipes that should of been in the bag. Next thing I know I hear something...someone falling down the stairs.
And I say something like oh no no no and hurry to stand up and walk over to the stairs and I watch Isaac roll down the last few steps and pretty sure I say spencer!! And he comes running over and down the stairs to get Isaac.
From the distance I thought his mouth was all bleeding but it was just chocolate from pie he ate earlier (lol)
He was shocked and then of course burst into tears. And daddy grabbed him. I handed Jackson over to Dianne and then Isaac wanted to come to me. We went over to the rocking chair and he cried and we rocked. Then we noticed his nose was bleeding a little. We checked his eyes and they weren't different sizes. Pretty sure there were a few bumps on his head. And a few scratches on his face. We gave him some medicine and he slowly seemed to calm down. His head was super hot so I took off his sweater.
He did have his shoes on which meant he didn't slip down the stairs with his socks on. And he had his pacifier in which probably protected his teeth. He at least fell half way down the stairs. But I didn't see the whole thing so it's possible he made it down most the way first.
There was someone there who is going into nursing and I almost done so she helped check him over a little bit which was nice.
Then Isaac soon was back to playing around. But I wanted to hold him forever and ever.
He was acting tired but he was before he fell so I wasn't too worries about that.
We did finally get him down around 10pm and daddy slept with him most the time. He woke up a few times for a little but and we gave him more medicine. Thankfully Jackson slept well and didn't really wake Isaac up so we were all up around 7am... Well not like spencer and I got a choice lol
1. Doesn't surprise me he was like "I will just go down myself." (He still isn't good at going down stairs by himself)
2. The sounds was like a tumbling you going down the stairs but your child! (A sound I will never forget)
3. And of course I kind of blamed myself because I'm his mother and suppose to protect him (I know things happen and I can't be everywhere to watch him)
Ahhh the worst but somehow like always he is always just fine after the hurt and shock wore off. But mommy is still trying to get over it all. I know things happen and you can't control everything but doesn't mean I can't worry and still worry after the fact.
I would guess there are a lot of moms that's have certain fears or situations to never happen to their kids... Well one of mine came true on thanksgiving.
It's one of those memories I will probably never forget (maybe in time)
Every once in awhile the memory will pop in my head and I wanna burst into tears
We were in Idaho at my in laws new place and there were lots of kids and adults. We were all on the main floor most of the time. They do have these hard concrete or wood stairs covered in linoleum that go downstairs. There is a half door that keeps it closed off which is nice especially with little kids rubbing around.
I walked near the stairs with Jackson to get diapers for both the boys out of my bag and Isaac followed me.
It seemed like he wanted to go downstairs but I said no bud we aren't gonna go downstairs right now. I didn't bother to check if that stair door was closed because it wasn't in my eye sight an it's always been closed all day so I didn't think to worry.
I look back down at my bag trying to find the wipes that should of been in the bag. Next thing I know I hear something...someone falling down the stairs.
And I say something like oh no no no and hurry to stand up and walk over to the stairs and I watch Isaac roll down the last few steps and pretty sure I say spencer!! And he comes running over and down the stairs to get Isaac.
From the distance I thought his mouth was all bleeding but it was just chocolate from pie he ate earlier (lol)
He was shocked and then of course burst into tears. And daddy grabbed him. I handed Jackson over to Dianne and then Isaac wanted to come to me. We went over to the rocking chair and he cried and we rocked. Then we noticed his nose was bleeding a little. We checked his eyes and they weren't different sizes. Pretty sure there were a few bumps on his head. And a few scratches on his face. We gave him some medicine and he slowly seemed to calm down. His head was super hot so I took off his sweater.
He did have his shoes on which meant he didn't slip down the stairs with his socks on. And he had his pacifier in which probably protected his teeth. He at least fell half way down the stairs. But I didn't see the whole thing so it's possible he made it down most the way first.
There was someone there who is going into nursing and I almost done so she helped check him over a little bit which was nice.
Then Isaac soon was back to playing around. But I wanted to hold him forever and ever.
He was acting tired but he was before he fell so I wasn't too worries about that.
We did finally get him down around 10pm and daddy slept with him most the time. He woke up a few times for a little but and we gave him more medicine. Thankfully Jackson slept well and didn't really wake Isaac up so we were all up around 7am... Well not like spencer and I got a choice lol
1. Doesn't surprise me he was like "I will just go down myself." (He still isn't good at going down stairs by himself)
2. The sounds was like a tumbling you going down the stairs but your child! (A sound I will never forget)
3. And of course I kind of blamed myself because I'm his mother and suppose to protect him (I know things happen and I can't be everywhere to watch him)
Ahhh the worst but somehow like always he is always just fine after the hurt and shock wore off. But mommy is still trying to get over it all. I know things happen and you can't control everything but doesn't mean I can't worry and still worry after the fact.
Thursday, November 13, 2014
A week with 2 under 2
A week with two kids....
Surprisingly the first few days weren't too bad but daddy was good at taking care of Isaac
I would the sns a little longer but then we decided this wasn't going to work. Which is kind of frustrating because I produce milk it may take a few days but that my children struggle to wanna latch and be patient so it makes me sad but I do know there is nothing wrong with using formula. The down size is I'm losing the baby weight slower :( depressing!
The first night was a little rough with Jackson because he hurt from his circumsion but after that he sleeps a lot which I love because then I can give Isaac some attention.
I ended up with an allergic reaction to I'm not sure so I was itchy, swollen and red all over down there which is not the place to have a allergic reaction especially when your still healing from having a baby lol
Once I got steroids it started getting better yay! I wasn't as exhausted after Jackson as I was with Isaac but physically I felt like I was healing a lot slower. Especially cuz this time around I had to stop my milk and man that's a pain! They are a little better but still producing some milk. And my emotions have sure been all over the place, even though Jackson is pretty good baby I still emotionally have a hard time taking care of both of them by myself even though I've survived :)
Isaac has been getting into trouble which is expected and he hasn't been eating well which I'm sure doesn't help his crabbiness. He has been sleeping fairly decent until last night he was up yelling our names and whining and not settling down (poor spencer) but Jackson is super gassy and struggles with that so he doesn't always sleep really great but once it's been two weeks I may have to change the formula he is using if he is still struggling so much.
The cats are being really curious of baby now which is cute but they get in the way lol
One thing that's been helpful is getting up at 730 I can feed Jackson and take a shower before Isaac wakes up so then I feel fairly ready for the day
Isaac also has the pacifier back half way through the day which is a comfort for him right now so we will give it a few more days but then need to start getting rid of it again.
He will give Jackson kisses and bring Jackson a pacifier when he cries and will sometimes peek over at him to just check him out. So he has been helpful but still jealousy hits every once in awhile.
Isaac defiantly seems very big now that we have another little one around the house lol but he still is a little baby and cracks me up :)
Sorry this post is all over the place but was writing it on my phone as I had time in between watching two kids.
I don't mind taking them places but there isn't really anywhere to take them.
I did some newborns for Isaac. But since he wouldn't sleep he wouldn't let me position him in weird positions but I did get a few good ones. Going to do more within the week though and get announcements sent out soon hopefully.
Either way we are surviving but I am defiantly taking a break before we have another baby lol
Oh and one plus is Jackson doesn't seem to prefer me over anyone (right now anyways) which is kind of nice cuz I don't have to hold him 24:7 and he sleeps well in a bouncer especially when swaddled
Also spencer is back to work which was hard to accept him going back but it's a part of life. The hard part is he is still doing school so even though he may be home from work he has to go in the back room to do homework. And I know he feels bad but it's great that he is getting an education.
And with each kid we have the more I love him. He is amazing with our kids and very helpful when I need his help. And I'm grateful for the time we all have together. It's a joy watching Isaac play with daddy and giggle and smile. It brigs a smile to my face.
Surprisingly the first few days weren't too bad but daddy was good at taking care of Isaac
I would the sns a little longer but then we decided this wasn't going to work. Which is kind of frustrating because I produce milk it may take a few days but that my children struggle to wanna latch and be patient so it makes me sad but I do know there is nothing wrong with using formula. The down size is I'm losing the baby weight slower :( depressing!
The first night was a little rough with Jackson because he hurt from his circumsion but after that he sleeps a lot which I love because then I can give Isaac some attention.
I ended up with an allergic reaction to I'm not sure so I was itchy, swollen and red all over down there which is not the place to have a allergic reaction especially when your still healing from having a baby lol
Once I got steroids it started getting better yay! I wasn't as exhausted after Jackson as I was with Isaac but physically I felt like I was healing a lot slower. Especially cuz this time around I had to stop my milk and man that's a pain! They are a little better but still producing some milk. And my emotions have sure been all over the place, even though Jackson is pretty good baby I still emotionally have a hard time taking care of both of them by myself even though I've survived :)
Isaac has been getting into trouble which is expected and he hasn't been eating well which I'm sure doesn't help his crabbiness. He has been sleeping fairly decent until last night he was up yelling our names and whining and not settling down (poor spencer) but Jackson is super gassy and struggles with that so he doesn't always sleep really great but once it's been two weeks I may have to change the formula he is using if he is still struggling so much.
The cats are being really curious of baby now which is cute but they get in the way lol
One thing that's been helpful is getting up at 730 I can feed Jackson and take a shower before Isaac wakes up so then I feel fairly ready for the day
Isaac also has the pacifier back half way through the day which is a comfort for him right now so we will give it a few more days but then need to start getting rid of it again.
He will give Jackson kisses and bring Jackson a pacifier when he cries and will sometimes peek over at him to just check him out. So he has been helpful but still jealousy hits every once in awhile.
Isaac defiantly seems very big now that we have another little one around the house lol but he still is a little baby and cracks me up :)
Sorry this post is all over the place but was writing it on my phone as I had time in between watching two kids.
I don't mind taking them places but there isn't really anywhere to take them.
I did some newborns for Isaac. But since he wouldn't sleep he wouldn't let me position him in weird positions but I did get a few good ones. Going to do more within the week though and get announcements sent out soon hopefully.
Either way we are surviving but I am defiantly taking a break before we have another baby lol
Oh and one plus is Jackson doesn't seem to prefer me over anyone (right now anyways) which is kind of nice cuz I don't have to hold him 24:7 and he sleeps well in a bouncer especially when swaddled
Also spencer is back to work which was hard to accept him going back but it's a part of life. The hard part is he is still doing school so even though he may be home from work he has to go in the back room to do homework. And I know he feels bad but it's great that he is getting an education.
And with each kid we have the more I love him. He is amazing with our kids and very helpful when I need his help. And I'm grateful for the time we all have together. It's a joy watching Isaac play with daddy and giggle and smile. It brigs a smile to my face.
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