Be Still

Had a fantastic night with Spencer! We downloaded Roller Coaster Tycoon 2 onto my laptop. So much fun! Also, we played some games on our Play station 3. Laughter is the key to happiness.

We relooked over our love languages for Family Home Evening, it went pretty well.

It was a nice relaxing night. We also got Wendy’s for dinner. Yummy!! I ate a lot more of food then I usually do. I usually only can eat almost 4 nuggets and some fries but I ate half a small fry and 7 nuggets! I’m a big girl now lol

Then Spencer didn’t have to go to class today so we slept in and play more Roller Coaster Tycoon 2 this morning. It was a fantastic morning! I wish we didn’t have to go to work but such is life.

There is a ton of new movies coming out that I’m super excited about! I just cannot wait =] For example: The vow, snow white and the huntsman, Gone, Sleeping beauty, the divide, mirror mirror, this means war, I hate Valentines Day (maybe), and The lucky one! =]

Today at work is my boss’s birthday so we got a YUMMY delicious cookie! =] HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

We have one smallish stack left to shred, YAY!!! Then I will get back to typing up some papers I need to type up.

Tonight our home teachers are coming over, it will be the first time we’ve ever had some come over. So that will be nice. And today is clean the living room day so it will be all nice and pretty when they come over =]

I’m getting this Play station game, can’t remember the name, but it’s where you follow the dance moves. I am super excited because it will be a way to get me up and moving because I enjoy music. It shipped yesterday and hopefully we shall get it soon!!!

I’m just in a really happy mood. I wish Spencer didn’t have to go to school anymore. Oh well he does good at school and learns a lot of new things.

21 days closer to Christ

Yesterday it was about gifts, I think one thing is I am willing to help someone as much as I can. If I could give people gifts, food, and money they needed I would in a heartbeat. I mean more to people I know, and sometimes to people I don’t know.

Day 15- The sycamore tree

Invitation: Be still

Scriptures: Luke 19:1-6

*First, fine your sycamore tree, or the quiet place you can go to focus on the Lord. Second, make haste and invite the Lord into your home. How will you prepare to receive Him?

- My quiet place would be a tree house if I had one, or a clean closet which I don’t. But even just sitting in our back storage room probably would be a good place to go. I will prepare to receive the Lord by having spiritual things happen in our home. Also by doing what I have needed to do. For example prayers, scriptures, and Family Home Evening.

Do your best

Welcome back to another week, Happy Monday!

Friday night Spencer and I just relaxed around the house and enjoyed each others company.

On Saturday we got up and ready to go to Orem to my friend, Tiffany’s, baby shower.

It was really exciting to see her; it’s been about 2 years since we’ve seen each other face to face. It was a couple’s baby shower so we could bring our spouse. It was a nice day for a get together.

When we got there eventually 3 other couples arrived and we played some normal baby shower games and some PS3 games. Whoever won each game got a gift card. Spencer and I won one game and got a Best Buy gift card. It was fun and entertaining.

When we got home we stopped at a grocery store to get a journal for me to write down a pattern of my life to see if there is anything I see in the pattern. Then ingredients to make a golden graham dessert. It turned out really well. Then Spencer worked on some homework while I watched some TV Shows. Around 7pm we walked to Village Inn to get some food. I had chicken noodle soup, country potatoes, and blueberry pomegranate limeade. Spencer had chicken strips and fries, and vegetable soup. The only sad part about the experience was they sat us RIGHT next to a bunch of high school students that were loud and inappropriate. There place was not that full so I’m not sure why we got seated by them of all people. Other then that everything tasted well.

Sunday off to church and learned some pretty good things in a sacrament talk. Too hard to explain on here. Then off to nursery! It was a CRAZY day but it all turned out pretty well. We had 8 children and they were running all over the place and I felt like once I took care of one child another one needed assistance. But they are such a joy to be around. I’m really excited to be in nursery.

After church we went to Tooele with Jessica & J to visit with my parents. We had a roast meal with potatoes! Yummy! Then we just kind of played around. Spencer and I did some much needed laundry and watched a movie/TV show here and there. It was a great day.

When we got home Spencer made the bed and did all the dishes. It was really nice of him because I knew he had other things he needed to be doing and I didn’t besides the things he did for me. It touched my heart; he is so good to me. =]

Now I am back to work and shredding more paper. We are getting closer to the bottom of the stack thankfully! It keeps us busy so I’m not complaining much.

We have lots of holidays & birthdays coming up so I’m trying not to use my credit card but things have come up but I am trying to be better with my money but its hard when you want to get a gift for everyone who is having a birthday because I think they deserve a gift from Spencer and I. Money will just always be a little challenge for me. Hopefully we get our school papers so we can get our taxes done soon. I’m sure we will get a lot more back than I did last year. That was the lamest tax return I ever received.

21 days closer to Christ

Day 14- The better part

Invitation: Do your best

Scriptures: Luke 10:38-42

* Remember who you are. What are you best at? What gift can you offer? How can that gift bring more joy to the people around you? Choose to give the better part today. Find one way that you can use your gift to serve someone else’s need.

-I will have to pray and ask what gifts I have because I’m not really sure. I know a few little things but should know a little more before I can strengthen and use that gift.

Reflect

I went visiting teaching yesterday with Toni to see Margret. It was a nice chat we had! We keep trying to plan a time were we can have a girls night to play games or watch movies. Who knows, but it will be super fun!

Margret travels a lot; I wish I could do something like that and have money and connections.

I picked up Spencer from the Trax and went home to clean the bathroom. I scrubbed the shower… not as good as Spencer though, but I didn’t have one tool that would have helped me better.

I got a massage certificate in the mail from Spencer as a gift for our one year together as a couple. He is so good to me! =]

Last night I read day twelve from 21 days closer to Christ to Spencer. We don’t talk much about spiritual stuff besides praying and reading scriptures and besides me blogging about the book; I don’t share much of what I’ve learned to anyone. And Spencer and I talk but not always about church even though we follow the commandments. 

Charlotte is selling her books for a dollar and it’s a LONG list, I picked out about 100 that I wanted… maybe I should narrow my list down a few….

This morning I was going to do whites for laundry today at Jessica’s but then I remembered on Sunday we are going to my parents house so I will do it then =]

I think I ordered a good Valentines gift for Spencer. Hope he likes it.

I know more about TV and movies because it’s more interesting to me then other things. But I realized maybe that’s the thing I should change, less TV and become more creative in life.

Other than all of that I’ve been shredding more paper all day at work. Starting to get a knot in one of my shoulders… oh well.

It’s Friday!!! I can’t wait to just go home and spend sometime with Spencer. =]

And it’s a nice day outside, kind of chilly but sunny and blue skies!

21 days closer to Christ

Day 13-

Invitation- Reflect

Scriptures: Isaiah 50:10-11

* Write down some ways that you have been able to turn to the Lord for direction and support. Write down some of the ways you have learned to trust Him. Today find one way to share your testimony of these two principles with someone who is struggling.

- In my important decisions. For example I prayed and received blessings on knowing if marrying Spencer was what I should do. In trusting Him, when I get a calling I trust I have been given it for a reason. I need to learn something or help someone.

Random note for the future: When Spencer and I have kids I know how I am going to paint their room. Boy- 1 wall white, 1 wall black, 1 wall blue= then splatter the remaining of those colors all over the walls =] Girl- 1 wall white, 1 wall black, 1 wall pink= then splatter the remaing of those colors all over the walls =]

Change

I made some good chili last night and got little ceaser breadsticks to go with it.

Also got Ben and jerry’s ice cream for Spencer and me!

I cleaned the kitchen and vacuumed the living room. It looks so very nice!

The dishes have been by a good time.

Today is clean the bathroom day!

This morning I got up to go to Jessica’s to do our colored load of laundry.

Tomorrow will be white load of laundry.

If I do all at once then they don’t all get dried before I have to head off to work.

And getting up earlier and staying up keeps me happier through out the day.

Going to do laundry is an excuse to get up and stay up.

Also thinking I will do my 30 minute walks in the morning before work since it’s too hard to do it after work with Spencer. It’s too dark for me to do it by myself.

Today at work we are SHREDDING LOTS OF PAPERS!!!!!

I mean LOTS!!!

And the machine gets over heated so we have to let it take a break for like 30 minutes.

This is going to take forever and it’s too time consuming.

I’ve been sleeping better at night =] Occasionally I get a little fearful for the dark before falling asleep but I just take deep breaths and remember God won’t let anything bad happen to me. It helps a little bit to know He will protect me.

Found this link for COLORED leather bound journals, the smaller ones aren’t as expensive. I would LOVE to have one in every color. I do plan to write a journal instead of an album for each child we have. I am going to try at least. =]

Tonight Toni and I are going to do our visiting teaching for Margret that will be nice.

My body is tired from shredding so much. I also had a difficult time with Medco again; they keep calling my sister instead of me even though I’ve told them my number millions of times.

Anyways I called them over break and got everything figured out. Who knew getting birth control refilled would be so difficult sometimes.

OH!!! I fixed the vacuum last night; it hasn’t been getting a lot of suction so we thought maybe it was dying on us. I was just messing around with it and cleaning out the filter and noticed it has been unlocked so this time I locked it up. I turned on the vacuum and WHOOSH tons of suction. Lol So our carpet is extra clean now! I felt proud of myself.

Won’t see Spencer until about 9pm tonight…. =[ but hopefully I will have all my chores done and some relaxing time done before he gets home.

Which reminds me I need to think of a Valentines gift for him; one of my gifts from him was sterling silver earrings from Zales. They are beautiful and don’t make my ears itch!!!!! Which is a bonus =]

21 days closer to Christ

Invitation: Change

Scriptures: Luke 17:11-19

*Identify a change that you would like to make in your own life. Write down a plan that will enable you to make that change. Approach the Lord in prayer and ask for His help.

- The story she told about her teaching this kids in this type of prison about this story was incredible. I could feel the Spirit and just picture it all. I felt so grateful and it was a reminder of He can heal us if we ask and if we need to heal. And we need to thank him for that and recognize Him. It was awesome. But I can’t think of what I want to change yet…

The little ant that could...

Last night I got my Scentsy smells from Jessica =] Yay so very exciting! Then also watched pretty little liars and the lying game on TV! Oh how exciting and intense these shows can get! =] While we were getting ready for better and I noticed something while sitting on the floor. It looked like a piece of paper flipping over, a very little piece of paper. When I looked closer I noticed it was a shred of coconut and it was one little ant trying to drag it to wherever it was going. It was interesting. This little bitty ant caring this coconut piece doubles its size. It was super crazy.

This morning I got up to go to a muffler shop. It was hanging down super low on our car. It cost 178 dollars to get a new tail pipe and the muffler fixed. The guy was super nice though and it got done in like 30 minutes. =]

I found out Heidi Klum and Seal are splitting up! I am so surprised.

I got home in enough time to put chili together in the Crockpot!

Hopefully we get all our tax stuff soon so we can get our taxes done.

It’s Wednesday, I feel like the first two days didn’t even happen. They all went by in a breeze.

Spencer and I need to get a new vacuum sometime soon… but when and how much you know. We are thinking no more than 100 and have found a few nice ones, but haven’t decided on anything just yet.

I really am in the mood for a romance/chick flick movie. I just can’t decided yet what to watch. I want to for sure watch one I’ve never seen before but either their not on Netflix or I haven’t heard of any really good ones.

I will post a picture of what my car looked life before I got it fixed and the cute little ant I saw. NOW I do not care for ants in my house but just the strength and the courage this ant had. Honestly I think after awhile it went in circles because it didn’t know where it was in the carpet but he kept going. (its not letting me upload, i will later & I will put it on Facebook)

OH and I learned that Women do have smaller bladders than Man because we have to make room for a uterus so our bladder had to be smaller. Darn it! Lol

Yeah I think waking up earlier makes me happier through out the day, but either way every morning is hard to get up and stay up. Once I’m up and going I’m usually okay.

Cleaning the kitchen tonight and vacuuming the living room and bedroom.

21 Days Closer to Christ

Day 11

Invitation- Focus

* Today remember to focus on Christ. Allow Him to become part of your conversations, your celebrations, your teaching moments, and your thoughts. Long to be near Him.

- This one was more about the storm and how Peter wanted to go to Christ right away so he jumped out of that boat to Him. He wanted to be with Christ. That was who he saw and he didn’t see the storm that was around

Stand-Firm foundation

I had a headache like all day yesterday and I can feel it slowly coming back this morning.

It’s like constant pressure all over like I need to push a button to release some things from my brain.

Mostly Spencer was kept busy with homework and we decided to go to bed around 10 instead of 1030 last night. I took some sleep medicine and I slept a lot better than the past two nights. I went back to sleep again after Spencer left BUT I got myself up at 9am today, that’s better than usual.

Oh and since yesterday was Monday I did clean up the bedroom. Now today is Tuesday so its living room day. =]

Scentsy order came in today and I’m so excited! I can’t wait to get my scents from Jessica!!

I do feel I need some caffeine today for my headache. During my 3 o’clock break I may head out and get myself a drink since I don’t have a quarter for the cans in our vending machine. I might have change in my car but I kind of don’t think so.

Also we got pizza at work today so that was nice even though I take off all the cheese lately.

It’s kind of chilly outside today and I filled up the car.

I just realized that I was going to look at Christ in my life and write about it. I keep meaning to but when I do have an experience by the time I write in my blog I’ve forgotten it.

Basically I could put how driving Saturday he guided me and didn’t let any harm come to me in that crazy weather. He has helped me to not stay upset about things for very long. I don’t hold on to things as much as I used to.

And so far my sister-in-law, Jessica, is doing well with this pregnancy and I’m grateful for that. She would be a wonderful mother and I think she deserves to be a mom finally. She’s been through a lot and she still keeps her head up.

Other than that it’s just Tacos for dinner tonight =]

21 days closer to Christ

Invitation- Stand

*When you see the battle raging, where do you see yourself in the fight? Consider your church calling, your role as a parent, or your role as a friend. Do you give some, or do you give all? Find one way that you can strengthen someone today.

Hymn # 85- How Firm a Foundation

In ev’ry condition—in sickness, in health,

In poverty’s vale or abounding in wealth,

At home or abroad, on the land or the sea—

As thy days may demand… so thy succor shall be.

Fear not, I am with thee; oh, be not dismayed,

For I am thy God and will still give thee aid.

I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,

Upheld by my righteous…omnipotent hand.

While I was reading this in my head I felt the spirit.

He is always there for us. He wants to help us. It’s just in incredible.

Like I always say, I love music!

Saturday's storm

Wow what a weekend!

These last two nights I haven’t been sleeping well. I blame it on not writing in my blog because my mind was going crazy with information.

Saturday Channelle and I went to see Sandra, a kinesiology lady. She has been very good to me in the past.

Now I’d love to share what I learned about myself because I LOVE sharing everything I learn about myself but I feel I should probably keep this to myself, and only share with certain people.

It was an eye opening experience though and I will tell you that instead of having a certain thought and thinking through it and just putting it away. It was a constant thinking process; I couldn’t just put it away in a file and come back later. So we had to break the cycle so I could stop stressing over it all. I will tell you I feel a lot better. =]

Channelle and I had to drive through some NASTY rain though to get to bountiful and back. I couldn’t see a lot of the time, thankfully we made it save. Channelle, Spencer, and I watched the first Harry Potter movie because Channelle hasn’t seen them all yet.

Then I went to take Channelle home and there was a pile of snow already on the ground. I prayed that I would get to West Valley safely. I got lost getting there but finally picked up Cynthia from work then we got lost getting to the restaurant. Lol

We arrived at TGI Fridays safely and ate a nice meal with Keri, Ashley, and Cynthia and I. Lynnea wasn’t able to make it. We learned some happy news about each other but I won’t say anything about those conversations. We all had a pretty good time though and it was nice to get out with some old friends but I wish the weather wouldn’t have been so bad.

Finally I was off to take Cynthia home… we got lost again but finally arrived as the snow piled up on the ground higher each street I passed. But we arrived safely at Cynthia’s place and off I went to drive home. Thankfully I figured out where I was and got on 600 South which is a one way street. There were three street lights out and a car that was going the wrong way on the street. I’m not sure if they realized that.

But finally I managed to make it home safely to Spencer, man what a day it was!

It was nice to finally be inside a dry warm cozy home.

Then Sunday was a nice day and I enjoyed being in nursery. Those kids are just hilarious sometimes. I especially love their laughs. At times some of them can be difficult but you got to love their creativity.

Later I talked to my mom on the phone which was nice. When Spencer got home we watched some TV then took a nap. OH and I learned that Rihanna is only 23 and has 6 albums already out. Wow!

After we got up we decided to create these old 4-h cookies I used to buy and can’t find anymore. So we made a graham cracker bottom, marshmallows, raspberry, and coconut and baked it for 10 minutes on 300 then what I should of done is freeze it for a little bit then pour on melted chocolate (but I didn’t so there were globs of marshmallows and chocolate). Then put back in the freezer. I tried a little bit…. Its okay but the chocolate is all wrong. Hmmm but after awhile I then made pizza bread for dinner. It turned out pretty darn good except I could have put more pizza sauce on it but its all good. I was proud of myself.

As I said before I didn’t sleep well last night so after putting Spencer’s snacks together and kissing him goodbye this morning I went back to bed with my cuddly teddy bear. When I got up I watched some Arthur on Netflix… who knew that Arthur is still playing!! I’m so behind so I hope they post all Arthur episodes on Netflix. So far its only seasons 12 and 13 I believe. But there are more playing right now. I miss watching Arthur in the mornings.

I ate my Captain Crunch cereal and got ready for the day. I put my hair in a nice side braid. I think it turned out pretty nice. Then set off to work while listening to the Rihanna and Katy Perry songs I bought a few days ago. =]

21 days closer to Christ

Invitation- Follow

* What counsel do you remember most from the last general conference? Write down the counsel given and place it somewhere that you will see it often. How can following that counsel strengthen your testimony? What is one way you can apply inspired counsel to your life today?

-         Probably You matter to Him By: President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

-         It is better to look up By: Elder Carl B. Cook

-         Waiting upon the Lord: Thy will be done By: Elder Robert D. Hales

I don’t have time at this moment to read over them but those were some good talks that I do remember. I don’t have a magazine right in front of me.

Well I hope you all have a wonderful day! =]

Discipline

Discipline is doing what you know needs to be DONE even if you don’t want to do it.

^ Amen to that. Last night I just starting pick up things and cleaning things and it felt good. Now every day Spencer and I are going to try to walk about 30 minutes. It gets you going and it’s good for you. Spencer does walk more than me but I didn’t want to walk alone.

Then this morning I got up and ready for the day. Dropped Spencer off at trax then went to Jessica’s to do laundry. I got almost all of it done but had to leave the jeans in the dryer.

It felt pretty nice out as I drove to work and hung some t-shirts up around the back of my car to dry a little more while I’m at work.

MAN what a start to my day at work. A gentleman walks in to get a sample of flooring but I had no idea everyone in that department was gone. And one because of a last minute emergency so I felt bad and tried to find someone that could get a sample for him. I called almost 8 more people and most were gone but FINALLY got a hold of someone that was here and could pull a sample. The guy seemed calm but upset, but things do come up so he needs to understand that I’m doing my best especially when it’s during lunch time.

Then he asked if I knew of any good Mexican places close by… and I said I don’t really like Mexican food but I know of a few places.

But then this lady was waiting for someone and chimed in to give him a place. Thank you to her but man it kind of made me feel stupid.

I am fine and not upset about anything but it was a rough first part of the work day for me. It’s Friday so there are no worries.

I do really wish I could get the Girl Scout cookies I ordered right away…. They look so yummy! I did find a recipe that’s close to a certain 4h cookie I used to love and sell when I was in 4h. It was described like this: they had a graham cracker like cookie, a dollop of raspberry jelly in the center surrounded by a ring of marshmallow all covered in chocolate with bits of coconut.  They don’t sell them anymore or I can’t find them. BUT I found a recipe that’s kind of close that I need to tweak a little but hopefully I can make something close to it =] I’ve been dreaming about them.

I CAN”T WAIT!!!

The office seems SO quite today… every either left early for lunch or most people left in general. Oh and let me correct myself it was a 33 cent raise not % I just wasn’t thinking it when I wrote it.

Tomorrow Channelle and I are going to a kinesiology thing. It’s kind of hard to explain what it does but in the end it helps me figure out myself a little more and feel better.

I will probably write to tell you what I learned… depending on what it is of course. =]

Then later off to have dinner with 4 old roommates… Keri, Lynnea, Cynthia, and Ashley. It will be interesting and exciting. We shall see =] It will just be fun to talk to girls since I don’t get to do that very often.

Not last night but the night before I had another weird dream about homeless people. I tell you what, they sure scare me and so does the dark, more than it ever has before sometimes. This may sound weird but I had this teddy bear I slept with that, Stephanie gave me when I was about 8 to take about bad dreams. Well I still have him, his name is pinky and lately I’ve been sleeping with him. Hugging something makes me feel more comfortable lately.

21 days closer to Christ

Day 8

Invitation- Listen

* Think about how you have learned to recognize the voice of the Shepherd. How has His “voice” come to you? Make a list of the moments when you have heard that voice and have heeded the call. Also fine one way to “hear” His voice today.

Well honestly I’m not sure how his voice has come to me. One possible way is through other people. Occasionally I will listen to someone and something they say will just hit me. I have gone to the temple and few times to ponder a situation and more than anything I will feel comforted. And of the course the wonderful talks we hear at General Conference have helped along with prayers.

Well I am excited for it to be Friday and on a side note I’ve decided each day should have one room I should focus on cleaning.

Monday- Bedroom

Tuesday- Living Room

Wednesday- Kitchen

Thursday- Bathroom

Friday- Backroom

I think it might be helpful to focus just on one thing at a time. But of course dishes are daily =]

Have a wonderful positively marvelous day! =p

Review

It’s really helpful for women to talk to more women even if it’s not about anything important. It sure brightens my mood. After Relief Society Activity last night and talking to people I felt a little more alive. I need to get out more and do that.

We had a lot of rain fall last night which was much needed. When I walked out the door to leave for work the world seemed refreshed from the water it received. It felt really nice out. A lot of people are saying it’s going to snow but I don’t really think it will. If it does it probably won’t be a lot of snow.

When I was driving into work I was listening to the show “Still haven’t found what I’m looking for.” I love that song, makes you feel empowered I guess. Then I walked into work and was told it was time for my one year review for my work. I was a little nervous because the very first review I had was upsetting. Either way I improved. They all think I did pretty well which made me feel good. I received a 33% raise so that’s awesome!

Today is Thursday which means I won’t see my husband until about almost 9pm tonight. =[

OH also at Relief Society last night we got in a circle and wrote something nice about each person and put it in their envelope. I read mine later and it sure does make you feel good about yourself too. A lot of people commented about my shoes, I was wearing my Tartis shoes Dianne made me for Christmas!!! And a lot of people liked my hair. And there were a few other deep thoughts people wrote to me that made me go, “You think I do that?” It was really sweet though.

I also think me blogging is a way to get things off my chest when I can’t talk to someone so I’m not over stressed because I’ve let most of it out on here. =]

21 days closer to Christ

Day 7-

Invitation: Pray

• Choose one step that you would like to focus on from Moroni 7:26. Either Ask, in my name, which is goo, in faith, or done unto you. (If you read the scripture you will probably understand the steps better)
• As you kneel to pray tonight, thank your Heavenly Father for His son, Jesus Christ. Share with Him the reasons why you are grateful for the Savior.

Almond Dental

Today has been a pretty good day. My mood has been fairly positive. This could be for several different reasons.

Last night I was thinking back on a lot of old memories, totally random ones.

Which is nice sometimes but occasionally it doesn’t let me sleep right away.

I remember one time; I know I was at least 16 because I drove out to see my sister, Stephanie, in Provo over night.

I remember we went to one of their single ward dance activity thing. And I remember part way through I got my stomach pain I used to get once every month or so. And it hurt and I was trying to just move and pray it would just go away.

I didn’t want to make my sister leave because of me but when I’m in pain it makes me really tired.

We decided that we would ask some of the men to give me a blessing. I remember before hand I had asked her the question about the oil and why they use it for blessings for sickness. We both weren’t really sure but we didn’t ask anyone.

When we got in a room and they stood around me to give me a blessing, in the blessing I remember they answer my questioned I had asked in confidence with Stephanie.

I remember thinking how crazy it was and it reminded me that God hears our prayers and our questions. He is always watching us.

Now there are sometimes we should ask someone the question but He does always see what we are doing and saying and even thinking.

The end of the story that I remember is we did end up leaving early and we sat on her couch and ate birthday cake ice cream. I can’t remember what we were watching on TV though and the pain didn’t go away for a while but the blessing taught me something none the less.

This morning I got up with Spencer and slowly got Stew prepared to put in the Crockpot. Doing that woke me up a little bit and when I DO make myself make dinner it does make me feel accomplished. It’s just the whole getting up and making myself do it. I did take a little nap just so I wasn’t super tired through out the day. Then I was off to my first dentist appointment at my new dentist office.

It’s called Almond Dental… 5 stars! I walked in and the receptionist was super nice, whenever I talk to her she is happy and upbeat. After we got paper work figured out I was off to get my teeth cleaned with the nurse. Is that what you call them? Or the assistance?

Either way, sadly I forgot her name but she was SUPER nice. She was talking to me and we were talking about our marriages and all of these different things. We figured out that we both were Mormon which isn’t that uncommon in Utah. But she was really nice and it was nice to talk to someone knew and have a connection of some sort. It’s nice to run into a Mormon because you just automatically have a connection usually with that person and you could talk with them for hours. Too bad I probably will only see her when I go to the dentist.

And Doctor Almond was really nice, at first he didn’t know I was a new patient because they have lots of Peacocks that go there for some reason. =] The sad part though was I have 5 cavities… all on the left side which is weird because I chew on my right mostly. But it’s partly because I don’t floss well. Which, okay fine, I will do a lot better this time because I am tired of having to be numbed all the time. Yeah this was a bummer to find out but I knew my teeth wouldn’t be perfect for long. They’ve always given me trouble.

But then I got to work and talked with Heather for a little while which is super nice.

You know I just realized that talking to people like really have some kind of conversation with them makes my day a little brighter.

Now I do talk to my husband every day but it’s nice to talk to someone else occasionally.

I wrote Elder Marstella aka Chase who is the brother to one of my friends named Haley. He left around the time I ended up getting married. And I decided to write him and he wrote me back today and it was a nice letter. He is super happy, you can tell.

ALSO I get to leave 30 minutes early today to pick up one of my handsome nephews… Jerimiah! He and I will hang out for a few, maybe even drop food off to Spencer while he is at the church. I think J will like that especially since I’m going to show him the candy stash at church. =]

21 days closer to Christ:

Day 6-

Invitation- Hope

Journey- Attempt to analyze through different eyes a situation that has been troubling you. Pray that the Savior will touch your eyes so that you will see what you need to do differently. Write down some of the good things that have come to you through Christ. How does recognizing these things bring you hope?

Answer- Well Spencer is a good person that came to me through Christ. Whenever I was feeling alone or needed someone I would pray for a friend, someone to be there. Every time Spencer would show up or text me. Christ made something happen, he made me see that I can need things in my life and he will bring it unto me if I need it at that time. Of course He knows when we need the things we need.

There is one situation that’s been troubling me. I don’t want to discuss it with everyone but basically it’s troubled me for a little while. And I’ve been told the same thing every time. Mainly just be patient. I completely understand why it’s that response but waiting is a hard thing and apparently I’m not really good at it. Knowing that He will bring things into my life when I am ready for it. That brings me hope, and makes me know that I can be patient. (Hopefully that made since)

Anyways I feel like today is not too bad of a day. Hopefully dinner cooks nicely in the Crockpot while I am at work AND hopefully I put all the right ingredients in it.

Have a wonderful day

Call on the Lord

Help me Lord

I feel a pressure I can’t explain

In my heart that’s full of rain

It builds up until it pours

Tears stream down my cheeks

For I cannot speak

My heart is heavy

As I lay on my side

I just wanted to hide

From the world around me

Then I got on my knees

To say “Help me, Lord, Please

Take these burdens from me”

As I finished my prayer

I thought that was all I could bare

When I struggled for air

The Lord is my rock

When I couldn’t talk

All I had to do was knock

Now this poem is just an example of when we are down and can’t handle anymore all we need is to kneel and call on the Lord.

It’s a little rough around the edges so I may come back and change it.

But lately like I have said I’ve been reading the book “21 days closer to Christ”, and it’s been getting me thinking.

One point it says I should journal about my spiritual experiences and what not and I would rather write them down in a book. Only I haven’t gone to the store yet to find a little journal. My goal is to journal about Christ’s hand in my life more than anything else. It’s really easy to get distracted though, especially since I love TV shows so much.

But so far I’ve done day 1-5.

The invitations were

1. Come
2. Covenant
3. Keep
4. Search
5. Discover

Each day I try to read one day which is kind of like a chapter.

At the end it will tell me scriptures to read and something I should ponder on or do that day.

1. Determine what fills your nets. Are everyday challenges such as time constraints, demands from work or home, or feelings of inadequacy or fear holding you back from developing a relationship with Christ?
2.  Today bring honor to Christ’s name by exemplifying him. Reflect on how each name of Christ describes a way that He blesses your life.
3. Keep a journal of your relationship with Jesus Christ. The pages could contain attributes you admire in Him, lessons He has taught you, or moments when you have felt His love. Have a written copy of your testimony and journal about this journey through these 21 days coming closer to Christ.
4. Think back on a time in your life when you had to search for the Savior to find strength. Try to remember the process: scripture study, more meaningful prayers, etc. Stretch again.
5. Prepare to receive a simple learning moment as you go through out your day. Let your search be constant. In every hour find some heavenly blessing that will bring you closer to Christ.

Answers:

1. I guess feelings of inadequacy and fear of not knowing. More than anything I just get consumed by the world, TV shows, and other things in my life. I just never really focused much on the spiritual side. I did know it was there and there were times I did focus on it.
2. I thought of protector as a name. I am easily scared of going outside in the dark sometimes and I know He is with me and it sometimes lessens the fear. Exemplar, He is someone we can look to as an example of how to do things or who to be. Healer, He can help heal a broken heart or help us over come sicknesses and pain. Listener, sometimes especially we girls need to talk and when we don’t feel like anyone in this world is there to listen to us we can talk to Him.
3. I’m just going to write down a few things not a lot. The love He has forever one is pretty spectacular. The patience He has and He doesn’t get angry.
4. Well I can’t remember much but one time when I was a senior in High School, I had sinned. Now it doesn’t matter what I did because in the end I repented for it. But the repentance part really does bring you closer to Christ and feel His love. I do remember kneeling on my bed and crying and praying so hard because I didn’t want to feel this guilt that I felt inside. It was so much weight on my shoulders and I needed His help and forgiveness. It was a stretch for me.
5. So far I have learned the constant looking takes time. I know that the flavor can run out of something if you don’t keep it fresh. So to me that’s like not constantly keeping the gospel fresh in my life would make it not taste as well and I wouldn’t be nourished.

Constantly searching and looking for the gospel more in my life is tiring. But in the end it will make me stronger. And I try not to say I/we will do it tomorrow because tomorrow may never come so we need to do whatever it is now. =]

Anyways have a great day.

Dating Anniversary

Today is Spencer and my 1 year anniversary from when we first started dating.

Seems like forever ago really but time has flown by.

We got engaged February 14^th, married June 18^th and now just going through life together.

We have out ups and downs but were making great memories.

I’m not sure what’s next for us for now Spencer’s just going to school and working and I’m just working and hopefully going to find a full time job that I enjoy.

We love our callings at church, they keep us busy.

And we have learned more and more about each other as we’ve grown closer together.

Next thing you know we’ll be that old married couple that sits on the porch all day.

I would post a picture of when we first started dating until now but I don’t have any with me so just go on my face book page to see pictures.

He treats me wonderfully and I try to do the same to him.

I love him very much and know we will have MANY more anniversaries together.

Movies/Tv Shows/Music

I’m still reading the book “21 days closer to Christ”, so far so good. =] It will take a little while to finally understand it all but I think it will be great in the end!

Now this post will be pretty different from my last post.

Two things that I love are Music/singing & TV shows/movies.

In this post I’m going to post some of my favorite pictures from movies/singers.

Also some of my favorite songs/lyrics & quotes from TV shows/movies.

There are a lot of things I love but today I felt like talking about these two in particular. Bare with me, it might be all over the place. If there is one thing I know a Song and movie/TV show can change your mood in almost a matter of seconds. This is incredible depending on the mood that you feel of course.

Movies: If you haven’t seen ANY of these movies you better get on it. I have even more but off the top of my head these are a few I could remember and think of.

Notebook:

Noah (to Allie): "If you're a bird, I'm a bird.”

Duke (reading): "Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars-a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone."

Noah: “So, it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day.”

A walk to remember:

Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this.

You're my angel.

Jamie: So, would it kill you to try?
Landon: Yup, and I'm too young to die

Landon: [voiceover] Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it.

50 first dates:

Lucy: Can I have one last first kiss?

[Henry pretends to get electrocuted while jump-starting his car]
Henry: Hah! I can't believe you fell for that!
Lucy: Well... my grandfather died while trying to jump-start a car...
Henry: Oh... I'm so sorry. I was just joking around.
Lucy: I can't believe you fell for THAT!

Lucy: I don't know who you are, Henry... but I dream about you almost every night.
Lucy: Why?
Henry: What would you say if I told you that notebook you read every day used to have a lot of stuff about me in it?
Lucy: I would say that that makes a lot of sense.
Henry: You erased me from your memories because you thought you were holding me back from having a full and happy life. But you made a mistake. Being with you is the only way I could have a full and happy life. You're the girl of my dreams... and apparently, I'm the man of yours.
Lucy: [barely able to contain herself, she reaches out and shakes his hand] Henry. It's nice to meet you.
Henry: Lucy, it's nice to meet you too.

Titanic:
Rose: I’ll never let go, Jack. I promise.
Old Rose: A woman’s heart is a deep ocean of secrets. But now you know there was a man named Jack Dawson and that he saved me… in every way that a person can be saved. I don’t even have a picture of him. He exists now… only in my memory.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me… it brought me to you. And I’m thankful for that, Rose. I’m thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you’ll survive. That you won’t give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.

Forrest Gump:

Forrest: My mama always said you’ve got to put the past behind you before you can move on.

Forrest: Mama says, “stupid is as stupid does.”

Forrest: My momma always said, life was like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.

Finding Nemo:

Marlin: Its like he’s trying to speak to me, I know it!

Dory: Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim, swim…are you my conscience?

Dory: I shall call him squishy, and he shall be mine. And he shall be my squishy.

Dory: Hey, look. “es-ca-pay”. I wonder what that means? That’s funny, its spelled just like the word “escape”

Can’t remember what fish: He touched the butt!

Another school friend: Hey! You guys made me ink.

Turtles: duuuuude

Tangled:

Flynn Rider: I didn't want to do this but you leave me no choice. Here comes the smolder... (gives smoldering look).

Sweet home Alabama:

Melanie: The truth is I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back.

Melanie: You're the first boy I ever kissed, Jake, and I want you to be the last.

Young Melanie: What do you want to marry me for anyhow?

Young Jake: So I can kiss you anytime I want.”

The blind side:

Leigh Anne: “You threaten my son, you threaten me.

Beth: You're changing that boy's life.

Leigh Anne: No. He's changing mine.

Juno:

Rollo: That ain't no Etch A Sketch. This is one doodle that can't be undid, Homeskillet.

Juno: If I could just have the thing and give it to you now, I totally would, but I'm guessing it looks probably like a sea-monkey right now and we should let it get a little cuter.

Vanessa: That's great.

Mark: Keep it in the oven.

Mac MacGuff: Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your butt. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.”

Twilight series:

Edward: Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars -- points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.

27 dresses:

Jane: I think you should just admit that you’re a big softy that this whole cynical thing is just an act so that you can seem wounded and mysterious and sexy...

Kevin: Whoa, whoa, whoa. What was the last one?

Jane: What?

Kevin: Did you say "sexy"?

Jane: [nervous] What?

Kevin: You think I’m sexy?

Jane: No.

Kevin: It’s okay if you do.

Jane: I don’t!”

The lake house:

Kate: One man I can never meet. Him, I would like to give my whole heart to.

Alex: Pick a place. I’ll be there, I promise.

Alex: She’s more real to me than anything I’ve ever known.

Just like heaven:  

Darryl: Can't you feel that, man? There's, like, this cancer-causing ray of spirit hate searing right towards your body.

Elizabeth: All I know is-is when I'm not with you it's like I don't... exist. Oh, my God. Maybe I am dead.

David: Oh, come on now. I'm, I'm sorry I said you were dead. Maybe you're not dead. Maybe you're just very...light.

David: Suddenly I know what I'm supposed to do. Because this time I can do something.

Elizabeth: What are you talking about?

David: Lizzie, when we first met, I kept saying you were dead. But it was me that was dead, and you brought me back. You saved me. And now it's my turn to save you.

Elizabeth: How?

David: I'm gonna steal your body!

Dear John:

John: So there’s something else I wanted to tell you. Right before everything went black, you want to know the very last thing that entered my mind? You.

John: Two weeks together, that’s all it took, two weeks for me to fall for you.

John: No matter where you are in the world, the moon is never bigger than your thumb.

Savannah: You don’t scare me John

John: Well you scare me

Time traveler’s wife:

Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

I won't ever leave you, even though you're always leaving me.”

Life as we know it:

Simon: You know what marriage is like? Imagine a prison, and then don’t change anything.

Holly: They love Sophie more than anything in their entire world, and out of everyone, Messer, they picked us.

Eric: Just because you accept help from someone, doesn’t mean you have failed. It just means you’re not in it alone.

TV Shows: I’m not going to give any quotes but just list a few shows I can remember over the years that I just LOVE!!! These are mostly ones from the past year or two.

Bones

Glee

Grey’s Anatomy

Last Man Standing

The Lying Game

Modern Family

New Girl

Once Upon a Time

One Tree Hill

Parenthood

Pretty Little Liars

Revenge

Ringer

Switched at Birth

The

Secret Circle

Up All Night

Music: Not exact lyrics but parts I love and just beautiful songs! =] If you’ve never heard any of these songs, look them up!! And these are only a few that I’m into right now or just love in general.

Selena Gomaz-

            Love you like a love song: You saved my life again and I want you to know baby, I love you like a love song (3x), I keep hitting repeat (5x). Constantly boy you played through my mind like a symphony. And it feels like I’ve been rescued, I’ve been set free. You are magically lyrical, beautiful. You are. And I want you to know baby…. Music to my heart that’s what you are, a song that goes on and on…

            A year without rain: Can you feel me when I think about you with every breath that I take. Every minute no matter what I do, my world is an empty place. Like I’ve been wandering the desert for a thousand days. Don’t know if it’s a mirage but I always see your face. I’m missing you so much, cant help it I’m in love, a day without you is like a year without rain, I need you by myself don’t know how I’ll survive…. The stars are burning I hear your voice in my mind, cant you hear me calling my heart is yearning like the oceans that’s running dry, catching me I’m falling its like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet, wont you save me. So let this drought come to an end and make this desert flower again I’m so glad you found me stick around me baby baby baby it’s a world of wonder with you in my life so hurry baby don’t waste no more time. I need you here, I can’t explain a day with you…

Jennifer Love Hewitt-

            Bare-naked: Id you ever have that dream where you’re walking naked down the street and everyone just stares. Sometimes I think I’m the only one who’s day turned out unlike it had begun and I feel bare-naked and I just can’t take it. I’m getting jaded no I just can’t fake it anymore. I know life’s what you make it, which I could float away to some other day. And I know it’s hard to hold it inside its days like these I run and hide when I feel bare-naked and I just can’t take it… Let it all fall, we all may fall but then the world comes tumbling down down. I feel do you feel, we all feel.

            Love will show you everything: Today I bet my life you have no idea what I feel inside. Don’t be afraid to let it show, for you never know if you let it out. I love you, you love me take this gift and don’t ask why cause if you will let me I’ll take what scares you, hold it deep inside. And if you ask me why I’m with you and why I’ll never leave, love will show you everything. One day when youth is just a memory, I know you’ll be standing right next to me! Oh! I love you, you love me, take this gift and don’t ask why cause if you will let me I’ll take what scares you hold it deep inside. My love will show you everything oh my love will show you everything thing. My love will show you everything. Our love will show us everything.

Adele-

            Someone like you: I heard that you’re settled down, that you found a girl and your married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I couldn’t give to you. Old friend why are you so shy ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the light. I hate to turn up out of the blue but I couldn’t stay away I couldn’t fight I had hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over. Never mind I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best of you too don’t forget me I begged I remembered you said sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead…. You know how the time flies only yesterday was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summer haze bound by the surprise of our glory days… don’t forget me I begged I remember you said sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Nothing compares no worries or cares regrets and mistakes they are memories made. Who would have known how bitter sweet this would taste. Never mind I will find someone like you…. Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead….

            Set fire to the rain: I let fall, my heart and as it fell you rose to clam it. It was dark and I was over until you kissed my lips and you saved me. My hands they are strong but my knees were far too weak to stand in your arms without falling to your feet. But there’s a side to you that I never knew, never knew all the things you’d say they were never true, never true. And the games you played you would always win, always win. But I set fire to the rain watched it burned as I touched your face well it burned and well I cried cause I heard it screaming out your name….When laying with you I could stay there, close my eyes feel you here forever you and me together nothing is better…. I set fire to the rain and I threw us into the flames where I felt something die cause I knew that that was the last time. Sometimes I wake up by the door, Now that you’ve gone, must be waiting for you. Even now when it’s already over I can’t help myself from looking for you…. Oh no, let it burn, let it burn….

            Rolling in the deep:  There’s a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever which is bringing me out the dark. Finally I can see you crystal clear. Go ahead and sell me out. Don’t underestimate the things that I will do. There’s a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever which is bringing me out the dark. The scars of your love reminder me of us they keep me thinking that we almost had all. The scars of your love they leave me breathless I cant help feeling. We could have had it all, rolling in the deep; you had my heart inside of your hand. And you played it to the beat... Think of me in the depths of your despair….We could have had it all, rolling in the deep…. Throw your soul through every open door count your blessings to find what you look for turn my sorrow into treasure gold. You played me back and reap just what you sow. we could have had it all, you had my heart inside of your hand, but you played it to the beat.

JoJo-

       Disaster: I’m trying not to pretend that it won’t happen again and again like that. I never thought it would end but you got up in my head and my head like that. You made me happy baby love is crazy so amazing but it’s changing rearranging I don’t think I can take anymore. Cause the walls burned up and our love fell down and it turned into whatever now were saying never. Feel the fire cause it’s all around and its burning for forever and always. You got to let it go the other way and live for another day cause it ain’t the same my baby. Watch it all fall into the ground cause happy ever after just disaster. I didn’t want it this way I only wanted to say I loved you right. But now you’re walking away and leaving me here to stay, so foolish of me to wait for you. To realize all the things I gave you made you change you your dreams came true. When I met you, now forget you, don’t want anymore…You shot the bullet you shot the bullet that killed me not feeling my heart beat now I was dying. I’ve been through it all the agony and now my guys are trying no more crying lying is just a game. So disaster strikes and I’m alright cause my loves on his way… burning up forever and always…. Just disaster

Emily Osment-

            Drift: I am just another number, stack me up I’ll crumble and drift along. I am just another nothing, line me up I’ll fall in and then be gone. La da de…. I am well suited for erasing, fading into hazy and sinking strong. And then it’s all over and done… La da de…. Well suited for erasing, fading into hazy and sinking strong….

Miley Cyrus-

            When I look at you: Everybody needs inspiration, everybody needs a song. A beautiful melody when the nights are long. Because there is no guarantee that this life is easy when my world is falling apart when there’s no light to break up the dark, that’s when I look at you. When the waves are floating the shore and I can’t find my way home anymore, that’s when I look at you. When I look at you I see forgiveness, I see the truth. You love me for who I am, like the stars or the moon. Right there where they belong and I know I’m not alone. When my world is falling about when there’s no light to break up the dark that’s when I look at you…. You appear just like a dream to me just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me, all I need, every breath that I breathe. Don’t you know you’re beautiful…? I look at you… You appear just like a dream to me….

Taylor Swift-

            Crazier: I’d never gone with the wind, just let it float, let take me where it wants to go. Tell you open the door, there’s so much more I’d never seen before. I was trying got fly but I couldn’t find wings but you came along and changed everything. You lift my feet off the ground and spin me around. You make me crazier crazier. Feels like I’m falling and I’m lost in your eyes, you make me crazier crazier crazier. I watched from a distance as you made life your own. Every sky was your own kind of blue and I wanted to know how that would feel and you made it so real. You showed me something that I couldn’t see. You opened my eyes and you made me believe. Baby you showed me what living is for, I don’t want to hide anymore! You lift my feet off the ground and spin me around. You make me crazier crazier. Feels like I’m falling and I, I’m lost in your eyes. You make me crazier crazier crazier…

            Breathe: I see your face in my mind as I drive away. None of us thought it was going to end that way. People are people and sometimes we change our minds. But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time. Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie. It’s the kind of ending you don’t really want to see. Cause its tragedy and it will only bring you down. Now I don’t know what to be without you around. And we know it’s never simple never easy never a clean break no one here to save me. You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand. And I can’t breathe without you but I have to. Breathe without you but I have to. Never wanted this never want to see you hurt. Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve. People are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out. Nothing we say is going to save us from the fall out…. Its 2 AM feeling like I just lost a friend. Hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me. Its 2 AM feeling like I just lost a friend. Hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me. And we know its never simple, never easy, never a clean break, and no one here to save me. I can’t breathe without you but I have to, breathe without you but I have to… sorry, sorry….

Kelly Clarkson-

            Stronger: You know the bed feels warmer, Sleeping here alone, you know I dream in color, and do the things I want. You think you got the best of me Think you had the last laugh bet you think that everything good is gone. Think you left me broken down Think that I’d come running back Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger stand a little taller doesn’t mean I'm lonely when I'm alone. What doesn't kill you makes a fighter footsteps even lighter doesn’t mean I'm over cause you're gone. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger Just me, myself and I…. You heard that I was starting over with someone new, They told you I was moving on over you, You didn't think that I'd come back ,I’d come back swinging You try to break me but you see…. Thanks to you I got a new thing started Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted Thanks to you I'm finally thinking bout me. You know in the end the day I left was just my beginning in the end... what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger stand a little taller doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone. Not alone….

            Dark Side: There's a place that I know it's not pretty there and few have ever gone if I show it to you now will it make you run away or will you stay even if it hurts even if i try to push you out will you return? And remind me who i really am please remind me who I really am. Everybody’s got a dark side do you love me? Can you love mine? Nobody’s a picture perfect but we're worth it you know that we're worth it will you love me? Even with my dark side? like a diamond from black dust it's hard to know it can become a few give up so don't give up on me please remind me who I really am…. don't run away don't run away just tell me that you will stay promise me you will stay don't run away don't run away just promise me you will stay promise me you will stay will you love me? ohh everybody's got a dark side do you love me? Can you love mine? Nobody’s a picture perfect but we're worth it you know that we're worth it will you love me? Even with my dark side? Don’t run away don’t run away don’t run away promise you’ll stay.