Meaningful Cards

Hoops and Yoyo cards! They are my all time favorite cards. The women that made them famous to me was my dear Mother. The first time I got one of these cards was I believe for my 17th birthday. =] I have a total of 8 of these cards and weirdly enough none of them have been a duplicate!!!
First card (17th birthday from mom): Your birthday gift is hidden in a top secret, surprise location.....surprsie! Happy birthday
Second card (18th birthday from mom): Know what you are? soooo special! Happy birthday... *heres a new car...d!
Third card (graduation one not hoops and yoyo from mom): Nothing but the best! That's my wish for you today and always. This is the rascal flatts song and it is dear to my heart. I hope you know somebody loves you....
Fourth card (the best one from my mom at college): This card is one of my favorites and it made me cry. Basically I was having a rough first semester of college away from home. I cried a lot and hated being away from my parents. I called my mom at least once every day. She sent me this card. "hey, need a little lift? always remember....WHFY!!! that means we're here for you! We'll be standing by." My mom wrote: anytime you need to be cheered up just open up this card and let the guys work their magic!  Now all of these cards have noise to them, sadly this one doesn't work anymore. And it was my favorite....oh well
Fifth Card (19th birthday from mom): Do you know what time it is?? just checking. Happy birthday!
Sixth card (20th birthday from mom): I was gonna get you something really special for your birthday. then I decided on really simple instead. My mom wrote: Hope you have a great day and enjoy your reuseable talking card. haha
Seventh card (20th birthday from Spencer): Shhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Happy surprise birthday!!!
Eighth card (3 month ann. from Spencer): Nuthin' special to say. just. hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! hello. How are youuu?? (so sweet)
Ninth card (20th birthday from in-laws): Know what you deserve on your birthday? lotsd and lots of extra toppings!!! Have an extra- happy day!!

The simple and sweetest thing can be a card no matter what occasion! =] You can keep them forever and for me the funny talking ones are thee best! =] They make me smile.
I've kept EVERY one of these
Thanks everyone for those simple remindres of how much I mean to you! =]
Love always
Holly

Painful Weekend

Saturday morning I woke up sick. One minute I felt like I needed to throw up and the next I was fine. I had to work at The Lion House though. It's weird how when my family leaves thats when I seem to get sick in some weird way. I got ready and and went off to work but just felt like crap. As the day went on I was getting pains in my chest. Jordan, who I was working with let me leave early to go home. I went to Spencers to relax for a few. The pain came a little more frequently and more painful so I decided to ask for a healing blessing. One I am very grateful to have a man my future husband in my life that can bless me in my time of need. It's been awhile since i've needed a sick blessing. In my head its usually to say what you need to do to get better and what you'll learn. But this one told me a lot more then I was ever expected.
* You will travel home safely, and get the things done that you need to. You will get a good nights sleep and relax tomorrow. You need to use the atonement in your life and let go of your burdens. You are living with your family to learn how to take care of a home/family. (like usually these weren't the exact words but it meant the same thing to me) As Spencer added he felt that my mother would help teach me how to take care of a home and cook and clean for a family.
Wow its crazy how my blessings are so much different now that I am engaged to be married instead of being single.
I did get home safely but the pain was getting to be too much. I went to Urgent Care and my doctor was confused to what it could be. Also whenever I burped my throat would burn some. I told him well I am an unsual person. So we decided on something for my esphougus. I couldnt get anything until tomorrow because all the perscription places were closed...LAME!
I went to bed at ten, and struggled to sleep well, I tossed and turned. I woke up around 3 in such agony of pain. I can't describe to you how I felt. It hurt so much and now it was going into my back. I knelt and pleaded to Heavenly Father to help take the pain away. I didn't know what else to do. Within a few moments the pain in my chest slowly went numb and I fell asleep for 2-3 more hours. I woke up in LOTS of pain but he comforted me in a time of stress/pain.
I went to get the medicine at 9am and took some, it doesn't seem to be helping much but as the day as gone on it comes and goes. I fell asleep on the floor and woke up and didn't have pain for awhile. I feel best when I curl up in a ball lol
I was talking to Spencer saying how I was still in pain and I didn't understand why. A blessing doesn't always cure the problem. The trials and pains we go through are to strengthen us in someway or another. Now I may not know why I am going through this pain and when it will completely go away. (I kind of think it might be my gallbladder, but I chugged 3 bottles of water, ate soup, and crackers and feel a little better)
It brings me to think of Easter which is today and what Christ suffered for us. He bleed out of EVERY pore for us: our sins, our pains, our afflictions, and more. The pain I feel is NOTHING compared to what he had to go through for us. I can only imagine, and even then thats difficult. Even though I was alone this Easter, I still knew that I was surrounded by loved ones: my mom texted and made sure I was okay, Suki did, Channelle did, Spencer did, and Sister Beagley even checked up on me. It gave me time to relax and see what I was grateful for.
Now am I glad that I went through this pain... right now not so much because it hurts and all I want his someone to hold me BUT I know there are times when people can't make it but that God is watching over me. He doesn't give us any trial we can't overcome. I will overcome this whatever it may be.
When I turned on the TV Sunday General Conference was on and the PERFECT talk came on that went with my situation By: Paul V. Johnson "More than conquerors through Him that loved us." Here are some quotes:
After time we see marvelous blessings on the heels of great trials.

Elder Orson F. Whitney said: "No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. . . . All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable. . . . It is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire."

Then I also heard this from Uchtdorf:"Preach the Gospel at all times, and if necessary use words." -Dieter F. Uchtdorf

"Oh sweet the joy this sentence gives, I know that My Redeemer Lives!" =]
I am thankful everyday for the atonement and the helping hand it gives us in our mistakes.
I love this gospel more than anything in the entire world. It gives me strength in knowing there is a reason we are here. There is a plan. I love God so very much and know he is there helping me through my pains and struggles if I just take His hand. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

My Verizon

Now I could be off the years I had them, but it was approx.
2006, age 15: Kyocera, KX1v SoHo

2007, age 16: LG, VX8100

2008, age 17: LG, Chocolate 2

2009, age 18: LG, VX8700

2009, age 18: LG, enV Touch

2010, age 19: Samsung, Reality

2011, age 20: HTC, Thunderbolt

Alright so i've had 7 phones in my life so far, wow thats a lot and they SURE have changed. What are they going to think of next. I don't know if I ever had an ALL time favorite phone BUT if I had to choose it would probably my second one the LG, VX8100. 1. I always loved LG's, they were good to me. 2. When you put it on silent the top part around the camera lite up all sorts of colors if you got a text or a phone call. 3. It was a flip phone, I love T9 a lot, I type faster that way.
Sadly the flip phones and T9 are dying out, its now all touch screen and a full touch keyboard. It's cool and all to have the NOW popular thing but WOW is it a lot of stuff to learn and technology. My battery doesn't last as long with my new one.
It's crazy how times change and flies by.

Growing up

I am trying to find a way to lay out everything nicely without it being overwhelming and also hoping i don't forget anything. lol This is what happens when you don't blog everyday. I need to get better at that.

Yesterday morning I was listening to the radio on my way to work. They told a story about a 9 year old boy who saved his little sisters life. I want to say she was two, she was floating in the water. His Grandma was freaking out but he calmly took her and gave her CPR. It saved her life. God always says be like little children. I think we let all the crazy world stuff get to us and so we freak out. But we will be okay, things happen for a reason. Just stay calm and take charge of the situation with no  freak outs. I am simply amazed at that little boy.

Lately at work we've been getting people in for interviews because we are hiring in three different postions. It's interesting to be the one on the other side of the glass "literally". To have a job and to see all the men's faces that come in to try to get a job. Who knows how long they've been without a job. They all come in with their best face on and talk to you and to show they can want to be a part of this business. I became said because it reminded me about how my dad had to go through this process LOTS of times, interview after interview. What courage it took him to put a face on and rememeber he was something. How many of these men have a family to raise, and feels terrible for not being able to support them. It breaks my heart when I see them come in and think they might not even get this job. I give them kudos for sticking with it and trying anyways. My dad is amazing and all those interviews got him to where his job is now. =] He is a wonderful father and I hope he knows I love him for all his faults and strengths!

My ankle still is hurting, joy! I was talking to my good old friend David and decided to go get it checked out. You can never be too sorry. I got an x ray and the doctor said it was just a deep bruise. It would take 4-5 weeks to heal. OH JOY, which means I have about 2 weeks left, it better be healed by then. I am tired of wearing sandels cuz I can't wear closed back shoes. I miss my converse.... BUT if we think about the positive my boss said that the last time someone got hit by the cart it cut her achilles tendion or something liek that and she had to have surgery. So a deep bruise really is nothing. But curse those stupid carts! lol

A few days ago I went to go retry on my wedding dress! They made a mistake that was an easy fix but man I love it more the second time, I am so excited!! My dear friend Bonnie came with me to keep me company. It was an adventure, and my sister Stephanie came to help and see it =] I have decided had if Bonnie ever marrys her now boyfriend that them and Spencer and I would be the couples that went on dates together, our kids were best friends, and just all that stuff. I could see us being the couples that hung out together. (Never told you that did I Bonnie lol)

As I've told you before I moved back in with my family. Which not a lot of people would be happy about but I am estatic! The past 1 1/2 year that i've been living on my own (but seeing my family every now and then) i've grown a deeper love for my family. I can't even describe it. But I love them SO much and would do anything I could for them. I never want to leave their sides honestly. So when they left me for Iowa I felt a little empty inside. I miss my family there as well and it hurts to know that some of my grandparents might past away soon and I won't get to see them before it happens. BUT on a positive note it means that I wont' see them at their worse, I will only remember them at their best =] I hope my family gets there and back safetly. I care very much for them!

Because I have a better routine and need to be home at a good time every night because of my long commute. I have been better at working out. TURBOFIRE!!! It is beating my butt a bit but I can honestly say I haven't eaten that much bad food, and if I have some its small doses. To be honest I can barely finish a whole meal sitting in front of me because my stomach has shrunk. It's nice and frustrating at the same time! Most the time I don't crave that many sweets either, makes me want to throw up when I think about them sometimes. I really want to be at my healthiest. I want my body to feel good. I want to drink 8 glasses of water, but I don't want to have to pee every 30 minutes.

The one bad thing about living far away from my job is the commute. I LOVE driving but I honestly did not think this was going to be so hard on my body. I am EXHAUSTED ALL the time now. I am hoping it will get easier but you never know. Just 105 days until I am married, but then we still live in Tooele for about 2 weeks more after that.. Were almost to the 100 mark =] Woot Woot!

I realized also that I love Suki more when I am not living with her. They really say don't live with your best friends =] Not that it was bad living together BUT I realized that I care more for her when I don't see her every single day then when I did. I can really listen to her and care more now. I had a great dinner with her tonight =] I sure will miss her in Peru, but she will do awesome!!

I feel different idk how to explain it just that I feel more grown up even though I live with my parents. They are not helping me pay fo rthing sjust the occasional wedding stuff. Its scary being up high like this but it also feels nice. I am half way in two categories. The awkard stage. Accordingly to paper work you're single but according to the ring on your left hand ring finger your engaged. You're almost married but your still kind of single in a way. It's hard but its a great experience.

Suki did our engagment pictures and they just look amazing. Let me post one of my favorites for you =]

Just amazing, shows the happiness =] And the fact that we almost fell over on Suki HAHA
I believe this is all I wanted to add for the moment. Can't wait for the future and to not be alone in this house...a week left. Come back parents of mine.
NEXT blog is going to be about the cell phones i've had through out the years, I thought it would be fun to see how they've changed.... I just have to remember all their names. lol

Flawless

These past two days a flaw I have was brought to my attention. I am sure I was told before hand what it was but didn’t really think about it. My mom brought up awhile back how I used to say something along the lines “I don’t mean this to be rude but……” Weather I say that or not it’s going to be taken that way. When I say that it doesn’t make it not rude. It means nothing to that purpose.

I’ve been learning a lot about myself especially through these past two years being away at college. I know what bugs me and I know what bugs other people. It’s a hard process to accept our “flaws” but a friend, Bonnie, once told me this statement:

Think about a photograph. Some of the best, prettiest, most fantastic photos are flawed in some way. Not focused enough. Too much light. Too little light. Wrong angle. Yet the photo comes out beautiful and perfect. But the point is, don't focus on your flaws because that's what makes you YOU and that's what people love.

She’s right, we can’t focus on our flaws we work on what we are already good at and then make what we aren’t good at better. I will be honest, I had a freak out when I found out that I wasn’t being as nice to people as I had thought. I never meant the things I said to hurt people, it was never my intention. So if I have said anything that was rude, I am telling you here that I am sorry and I didn’t mean it to hurt you.

*My goal is to accept that I have flows.

*Think harder before I speak and ask myself three questions:

1. Is it nice?

2. Does it need to be said?

3. Is it true?

*Don’t beat myself up when I’ve hurt someone.

When I knew that I had hurt people’s feelings I honestly will say I cried about it all night because I never wanted to hurt people. I always wanted people to love me, be happy around me, and not be hurt or offended. May I also add one thing try not to let what others say get you down, half the time they may not mean it. Don’t let it affect who you are. I am going to work better on trying to say things in a nicer way.

I drove around last night from 9pm-1am, its nice having a car because it helps me to escape and breathe for a moment. I was numb and I needed to just think for a moment with no pressure from other people. It was nice not having a phone for awhile either. It is a mystery as to where my cell phone charger went.

“Sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and where you want to be.”

This quote speaks the truth. We are constantly caught up in the world and all that’s going on around us. If we don’t take a break and step out in the fresh air for a moment we may forget who we are and where we are going. Don’t let the world catch you off guard. Stand tall and remember who you are, a child of God. I personally want to be in His presence again, and my journey will take me there. With Spencer’s help of course, we both have that same goal in mind, being with our Heavenly Father again.

Blah! I don’t like how I felt, and I know Satan was working on the flaw I had and life has been crazy with moving out, and others moving in. It was/is hectic and I’m trying to help make it go smoothly…. And I’m BREATHING. A lot of changes are happening and I just have to take it one step at a time. Thankfully school is over with, pretty positive I passed all my classes! =] Thanks for those who are around and help me out and listen.

Just remember its okay to have flaws, they make you who you are!

Two weddings

Two wedding dinners

Both temple weddings

Two different situations/outlooks

I won’t say the names and I will try to explain my best. This was working at The Lion House as a banquet server a few days ago.

First wedding dinner, I was on this one. They were early, because it was snowy outside and they wanted some warm shelter. They were all here ready to go 10 minutes early. We did our best to hurry and get it all ready for them. We came in and they were all in a great mood. Tons of love, you could feel it. They finished and asked for help if they needed it. When we had served everything we left them alone to have our break. When we came back you could see through the window that they were taking some family pictures and laughing. Later they were still there but we needed to clean out the room so we asked if we could while they were finishing up. They didn’t mind at all. When I walked in there was Micheal Buble and Enya in the background and the main family members: parents, the couple, the siblings and their spouses, and their children. They were all dancing, laughing, and enjoying each others company. They had LOVE in their life. This wedding was happy and in no hurry to leave one another.

Second wedding dinner that I say and heard about from a distant. They were an hour late on being served salads. Every time I saw the bride she was walking to the bathroom, fussing with her hair, sad, or walking the hall alone. I never saw who her husband was or much else. She looked selfish and stuck up. She was gorgeous! Her dress was amazing, her hair was beautiful, and she was tan and just amazingly pretty. There was just something missing…happiness. I didn’t find out until later why she was upset. 1. The weather was bad so she didn’t get pictures 2. Some of her family left the dinner early and she was sad because she wanted to do pictures before they left so they had to wait for them. 3. They didn’t have a place to stay for the night. (Husband didn’t book a hotel)

The couple was fighting. I heard that she told him this was not the wedding she wanted. What a way to start off your wedding day. It was sad but she was letting every little “wrong” thing get to her. She would sit down with her head in her hands. Her dad wanted to help and do what he could; you could tell they wished everything had gone right. You can’t always change what happened but you choose to accept it and move on to something else. I worried and hoped they would have a good wedding night. When I was done and about ready to leave I went down the elevator and when the doors opened I saw the couple at the end of the hall giving each other a huge, then a kiss. They were able to fix what they could and they communicated with one another and made up.

Now this just got me to thinking, how do I want my wedding day to be? I want it to be full of happiness, and love. I don’t want the little things that go wrong to get to me. I hope that for everyone’s wedding. It should be a happy memorable day despite the things that go wrong. Let them be the things you laugh about later on.

The End =]

The last few days

I don't like starting my blogs off this way but man has it felt like forever since i've written in here. Lots has happened in a short time. Let's see if I can remember it all.
I will admit there has been drama, and i'm not going to say with what or with who because it's really none of your business =p
Basically i'm done with school thank the heavens on earth! That was draggin on FOREVER, and I want to say I got all B's but who knows.
English: I skipped a lot of classes but no big deal, last I checked I had a 88% or something.
IT 109: Half way through the year I didn't have to go to class anymore because I passed =] yippie!
Accounting: It was easier this time with Spencer =] I learned a lot, and am glad I took this class but man was it kind of stressful.
Pearl of Great Price: Really good class, it was late though so I was always too tired to fully pay attention. Great teacher, but man was that 8 page paper long!
Now I am taking off the Summer and working both my jobs as much as possible.
I worked at the Lion House Saturday night and pulled the HUGE carts instead of pushing them. I didn't know I wasn't allowed too. Long story short it moved faster then my feet and smashed SUPER hard into my heel/ankle and it got swollen and was bruised really bad!! It was hard to walk on.
Then Jeffrey took Spencer and I to Tooele and we got our car!!! And went to church with parents =] Spencer bore a beautiful testimony and well won everyone in my family's ward over. lol We had a lot of fun and my mom got us an easter basket! =]
It is great to have a car, of course I should only drive it when necessary. To save on gas. $$$
I fell in love with this site called pinterest.com, LOVE IT, thanks Bonnie!! =]
I have gotten so many photography ideas, clothes ideas, and wedding ideas!!!
Next we've signed our lease at Seasons at city creek!! We are on the 2nd floor, which is kind of ground level. =]
Next my wedding dress is done and I get it on the 20th this month!!
Next we got our condo finalized in CA for our Honeymoon!
Next I got my ring resized, now size 5 3/4. Wow, still twists but with a band it will be better.
I got Turbo Fire!!! LOVE IT, but since I hurt my ankle, I have to wear open back shoes. Hopefully it will heal soon so I can get back into it. =[
I feel lots older, and more mature.
Also went on a really mini roadtrip to Wyoming with my dear friend Channelley!!! We had lots of fun, I was freezing but whats new. It was great to get away for just a night =] Glad she invited me. More Wyoming trips ahead in the future!
Lastly... I am moving back in with my parents. It sounds weird but I REALLY feel good about it and since this last blessing I just got from Spencer, it confirms it all. Let me mention a few things.....
*You are dealing with struggles and challenges that you shouldn't have to be, butyou are, but you will learn good lessons from them.
*It said something about you are being a good example for others.
and usually in blessings things are straight forward for me. They will say things like you will choose what you know is best for you. Or something to that affect but it said something on the lines of
*When you move in with your parents it will strengthen your relationship with them.
*You and your mom will grow closer
*You and your dad will learn about the things you have in common with one another
=] WOW!! I love my family more and more each day! One of the main reasons I wanted to move back in was because once I get married I won't be there as much. I will be starting my own family. I just want to have these last months with them as "single" and still theirs. THE END!!! It was just great feeling....
Then we just went shopping for engagment picture clothes =] Love you all, hope I covered everything!!

Book Club

I’ve decided I love reading books! I used to before but then school became my life and I never had time. Well now I’ve been making time and remembering how much fun I have doing so. It’s like being lazy but your mind is working overtime to create all these images =]

I get SO into most of my books that I want to talk to people about them and discuss. I’ve decided that I want to have a book club =]

Any of you want to join me? I have the summer off from school so I’ll have a little bit more time to read.

My latest books that I’d love to discuss with some people:

After By: Amy Efaw

The five love languages By: Gary Chapman

I’ve read TONS of books in my life and you don’t have to buy the books we read, we can just check them out at the library. It would just be nice to have a little book club….

Let me know if any of you are interesting, or if you know someone that might be!

I sure hope this can work out =]

Yeah!! I am just so excited, I might even do a book club just myself if I need to.

ASAP text me or email me or facebook me

Journey to the end of my life

Thursday night I went to my first stand up concert with my sister Stephanie. She bought me tickets for my birthday. It was quite an experience thats for sure. The bands I remember and kind of liked were: The ready set, Downton fiction, and Allstar weekend. There were all these teenagers and some parents. It was crazy, and lots of people were rude. Needing to be super close to the front and I would rather be towards the back. You can still hear them because well its freaking LOUD, I could barely hear myself think. Or feel if it was my heart beat or the music pulsing in my body. It was crazy intense. It was a great experience but I don't ever really want to do it again. I ended up seeing Quincy and Caidan there...crazy!!
Favorite songs:
The Ready Set- Spinnin, Love like woe, More than alive, and Sixty Eight
Downtown Fiction- I just wanna run
Allstar Weekend- Hey, Princess, *Journey to the end of my life, and Not your birthday
It's also more fun when you actually know the bands and the words to their songs. But it wasn't too bad =]

Then Friday morning Kelsee Gates came by to see me!!! =] It was really good to see her. We just caught up a little bit and had a great time.

Receptionist job is going pretty good. I've done some stupid things because I wasn't really thinking. So I felt stupid. I should of just asked the stupid question. Oh well, Heather sometimes will come up from her area and talk to me. It makes me feel important or that she cares. I love our crazy random conversations becasue I don't have them very often with people.

Lion House has not been calling my name often but I worked Saturday two shifts and it wasn't too bad. I enjoy it most the time. I have lots of people to talk to unlike my other job.

I have got all my packages I have ordered!!! My books: Hold still, After, The last saint, and the five love languages. < This book is amazing.. EVERYONE should read it even if you aren't married.
We all have a love lanuage that makes us feel loved. People show their love to us by how they feel loved but that doesn't fill up our love tank. They mean well but we must learn our spouses love language. Thank Heavens Spencer's and mine are about the same.
Love Languages-
Words of Affirmation
Quality Time
Receiving Gifts
Acts of Service
Physical Touch

Most the time but not always your love language is how your parents showed their love to you. It's super interesting. Most of these we should have in our lives anyways because its part of being a Latter Day Saint.
I also got a present for my friends birthday and sheets for Spencer and my bed =] They are AWESOME!

I went to Sandy, the Kinesiologist. =] This time for being able to let people love me and love them back. For example if you really know me, you know I don't like to be touched often or say I love you. She related it back to when I was 7 years old. I wish I knew what exactly happened. BUT it was intersting on where it was affecting my body the most. (IF you don't agree with this please don't tell me because it works for me weather you agree with it or not.) My mom can attest that its changed me. I am a lot more happier then I used to be. I am striving to make my life better. Either way it was an interesting experience and one of the doctors orders was to eat a salad once every day for a week. I can do that, just need to be reminded. I ate my salad today....6 more days or more if I feel like it. =]

Watched General Conference this morning with Spencer and Suki. I kept being really sleepy (didn't sleep well last night) but it was pretty good for the most part. I heard a lot about Women and their importance and how Children are important to watch and be humble like them. It's true I see that glow in their eyes. I had to work at the Lion House so I missed half of the second session.
I walked out into the pouring rain to get home, its nice when its warm outside.

4 months and 3 days until Spencer and I get married! It's getting closer haha

*I wanna take a Journey to the end of my life cuz I just want to see what its like, am I loved, am I hated, in your face, or understated....how will I be when I die? Do I turn out alright? Is my fate up to me? Will my kids go to school or stay at home? Is their peace or war?