Cali Vacation

May 11^th 2011 Spencer, Andrew and I flew to LA, California. We had been planning this for I think about 2 months. The main reason was to surprise Spencer’s mom, Karen, for her birthday! We all almost slipped a few times but thank heavens I kept the secret. I’m usually terrible at keeping secrets. I was so busy though that’s why I probably never remembered to say anything. It was a much needed vacation =] I barely talked to anyone in Utah and just relaxed. We got there late Wednesday night Mike and Jessica picked us up. Karen and Steve got home to us sitting in the dark living room… surprise! She was pretty surprised but exhausted from Young Women and Excellence. Then we stayed up and talked to Joseph for awhile. Then off to bed we went. Next day we Erin, Kevin, and Logan came too. She knew they were coming though. Spencer and I went on a date and went shopping for some things then went to see Thor. It was an okay movie but kind of lame. Then Friday I had a bridal shower and Spencer had his groom party at Denny’s. Then before the parties Dianne came and surprised Karen as well. She was super shocked! I got a lot of nice things at the shower and got to meet great people. It was a little hard being the center of attention from people I don’t really know but they were all nice. Thanks to Jessica for planning it all.

Next day we all went to get family pictures taken by Mike’s dad. =] It was pretty awesome and fun but really windy. OH I almost forget Thursday I went out tanning for a bit, not out very long and then surprised I’m burnt! Lame sauce. Oh well the rest of the week was pretty much windy and cold so I got some sun.

After pictures the girls went out shopping for a bit. To distract Karen from her surprise party. Yup, we had to keep THREE secrets. So very draining haha

She was surprised. Then Sunday we went to church and Spencer spoke for a few then we went to see Calzada who had an oil painting he had done of the Mount Timpanogos temple for us. It was beautiful. Desiree also stopped by and I was able to meet her. Great people. Then I was introduced to the show Dr. Who. It is really interesting but it’s been going for so long I am a tad confused at what’s really going on. Erin, Kevin, and Logan left that night with their dogs Ziggy and Molly. Then Monday we all were off to City Walk and Huntington Beach before we dropped of Dianne at the airport. It was beautiful beach and shops. I put my toes in the Pacific Ocean, sweet! It was pretty frightening though also. Eek We also stopped by the temple at the visitor center. It was sweet!

Then we went to Jack in the Box and had Gay fries/curly fries! Haha

We passed by Sunset Beach where Spencer and I are going to be staying for our Honeymoon. =] Exciting!

Then Tuesday was a lazy day and around 3pm we were off to the airport. It was a nice long needed vacation and I became closer to the Peacock family but it was time to head back to see my family again.

Then of course you’re away from your real life for a week and you come back to all this new stuff that’s happening. Such is life. Now I just need to survive it until my next vacation in August.

Blind

Lately I’ve been wondering how I would feel being blind. While riding the bus into work I see a blind person or two at the bus stop. When I try to picture being in there shoes all I feel/see is darkness. Then I got to thinking, how do you trust people. In this world we judge people by how they look whether we can trust them or not. We are told not to judge people but its part of a survival tip sometimes. I am sure without seeing them you can feel if something isn’t right. I felt that without being able to see were not aware of our surroundings. That isn’t true because they say if you’ve lost one of your five senses the other senses are stronger.

One blind lady came on the bus today and she was about oh 6 or 7 months pregnant I would say. Then I got to thinking how does she do it? I mean there isn’t much but eating lots and having to pee a lot at this point. But what is she feeling? Has she felt sad because she’ll never actually see her precious baby girl/boy? See their first step or see their first smile. I’m sure she’s thought about this but touch and feel is very important to them. She will touch their face and get a feel for how they look inside her brain. You don’t have to see a baby to know how adorable they probably are. Does she worry the baby will be blind too maybe?

How frightening that must be for a baby that just came from the light of God and entered into this dark world. The plus though is you don’t see all the bad things that go on, but you might hear them.

In the end you really have to have trust in people. You have to believe without seeing it. Which is faith right there. Knowing God exists and is real without seeing him by our side. We can feel he is there through some moments in our lives.

On a side note it’s been awhile since I have blogged. Basically there have been a few trying moments in my life. And it’s been really hard actually. I’ve almost gotten over one and am struggling to get over the other one.

They both involve be changing different parts of me drastically. Or that’s how I feel. Lol

It’s a lot of pressure and stress and I’ve buckled down a few times. Right now thinking about it makes me feel very weak and tired. I know with help and sticking to the Gospel will help me with what needs to be done and whatever happens, happens and I will deal with it all then. Basically I just need a vacation. Hopefully someday that will happen for me. I’m just breathing and trying to do my best. The End

Have a fabulous day, and I hope no one is harmed from the flooding. Let’s bring our sunshine back! =]

Hidden piece

Hold still
Lately I've been doing a lot of research on some important people in history okay so nothing really big but they are interesting o me.
IT got me thinking how people are not always what we think they are. I hope I can explain this the righ way so that you may understand what I am getting at.  We all have a piece of us that we keep hidden from everybody but ourselves but there are times we Try to hide them from ourselves. We put on this face of who we wish to be even maybe who we are but it's not ever piece of us. I thin it's totally fair to not give your whole self to the criticizing world. This isn't always good thought. Most of the pieces we don't show to others are usually the bad parts of us hat we don't want people to look down on us for.
Examples:
Aneroxic
Bulimic
Depression
Bipolar
Multiple personalities
Cutting
I am not sayin we all do at least one of these and hide it. I'm sayin how some of us are such amazing people that we wouldn't ever realize our friends or family struggle with these. Doesn't mean they are weird or different just they may struggle with something's like any normal person.
I must say ive had people like this in my life. Neve would I have realized it if they haven't told me.
Let me tell you of two people that ive researched that are not who you expected.
Let's start with princess Diana. An remarkable lady she was always helping someone and always smiling and happy. It's what the media portrayed. Now this doesn't mean she wasn't happy most those times. In my research though she struggled with anorexia. Self injury. And obsession over needing the be in the lime light. She liked getting pictures taken of her she loved every minutes of it but it's unhealthy. And I believe I read she had two personalities.
Next a slightly different situation. Amanda Knox. Her family and friends never would of thought she would ever kill someone. Now the law says she did hence why she is in jail. For all we know and what I believe is she didnt do it. Let's say the media is right and she did. No one ever knew she would of done something like that. Heck she might not even knew she would so something like that.
My point is how interesting is this. Who around you is hiding one little piece from everyone? I believe we all have a little bit of crazy in us doesn't mean were all hiding it.
From now on I am goin to look at people and wonder what they struggle with. Or are they being exactly who they are.
I think this is more in media some people play being perfect so well when maybe they go home and cry every night. Hmm just a thought I had plus it's been awhile since I wrote in here.
There are so many ideas I want to do but either I don't have enough experience in the area or not enough money or time. There are projects I've started but ne'er finished cuz I lost the drive cuz it took too long to finish. Sometime I hope to over come this and complete ideas I have.
Photography thoughts
Wedding ideas
Treehouse
Future home
Future bookstore
Like I said lots of thoughts..... Lol