When you have kids you then always want to protect them from everything!! But you can't especially when once they start walking because they are going to explore you can't keep them locked up in a room. Even then unless it's a padded room they will always find a way to get hurt it's natural.
I would guess there are a lot of moms that's have certain fears or situations to never happen to their kids... Well one of mine came true on thanksgiving.
It's one of those memories I will probably never forget (maybe in time)
Every once in awhile the memory will pop in my head and I wanna burst into tears
We were in Idaho at my in laws new place and there were lots of kids and adults. We were all on the main floor most of the time. They do have these hard concrete or wood stairs covered in linoleum that go downstairs. There is a half door that keeps it closed off which is nice especially with little kids rubbing around.
I walked near the stairs with Jackson to get diapers for both the boys out of my bag and Isaac followed me.
It seemed like he wanted to go downstairs but I said no bud we aren't gonna go downstairs right now. I didn't bother to check if that stair door was closed because it wasn't in my eye sight an it's always been closed all day so I didn't think to worry.
I look back down at my bag trying to find the wipes that should of been in the bag. Next thing I know I hear something...someone falling down the stairs.
And I say something like oh no no no and hurry to stand up and walk over to the stairs and I watch Isaac roll down the last few steps and pretty sure I say spencer!! And he comes running over and down the stairs to get Isaac.
From the distance I thought his mouth was all bleeding but it was just chocolate from pie he ate earlier (lol)
He was shocked and then of course burst into tears. And daddy grabbed him. I handed Jackson over to Dianne and then Isaac wanted to come to me. We went over to the rocking chair and he cried and we rocked. Then we noticed his nose was bleeding a little. We checked his eyes and they weren't different sizes. Pretty sure there were a few bumps on his head. And a few scratches on his face. We gave him some medicine and he slowly seemed to calm down. His head was super hot so I took off his sweater.
He did have his shoes on which meant he didn't slip down the stairs with his socks on. And he had his pacifier in which probably protected his teeth. He at least fell half way down the stairs. But I didn't see the whole thing so it's possible he made it down most the way first.
There was someone there who is going into nursing and I almost done so she helped check him over a little bit which was nice.
Then Isaac soon was back to playing around. But I wanted to hold him forever and ever.
He was acting tired but he was before he fell so I wasn't too worries about that.
We did finally get him down around 10pm and daddy slept with him most the time. He woke up a few times for a little but and we gave him more medicine. Thankfully Jackson slept well and didn't really wake Isaac up so we were all up around 7am... Well not like spencer and I got a choice lol
1. Doesn't surprise me he was like "I will just go down myself." (He still isn't good at going down stairs by himself)
2. The sounds was like a tumbling you going down the stairs but your child! (A sound I will never forget)
3. And of course I kind of blamed myself because I'm his mother and suppose to protect him (I know things happen and I can't be everywhere to watch him)
Ahhh the worst but somehow like always he is always just fine after the hurt and shock wore off. But mommy is still trying to get over it all. I know things happen and you can't control everything but doesn't mean I can't worry and still worry after the fact.
Friday, November 28, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
A week with 2 under 2
A week with two kids....
Surprisingly the first few days weren't too bad but daddy was good at taking care of Isaac
I would the sns a little longer but then we decided this wasn't going to work. Which is kind of frustrating because I produce milk it may take a few days but that my children struggle to wanna latch and be patient so it makes me sad but I do know there is nothing wrong with using formula. The down size is I'm losing the baby weight slower :( depressing!
The first night was a little rough with Jackson because he hurt from his circumsion but after that he sleeps a lot which I love because then I can give Isaac some attention.
I ended up with an allergic reaction to I'm not sure so I was itchy, swollen and red all over down there which is not the place to have a allergic reaction especially when your still healing from having a baby lol
Once I got steroids it started getting better yay! I wasn't as exhausted after Jackson as I was with Isaac but physically I felt like I was healing a lot slower. Especially cuz this time around I had to stop my milk and man that's a pain! They are a little better but still producing some milk. And my emotions have sure been all over the place, even though Jackson is pretty good baby I still emotionally have a hard time taking care of both of them by myself even though I've survived :)
Isaac has been getting into trouble which is expected and he hasn't been eating well which I'm sure doesn't help his crabbiness. He has been sleeping fairly decent until last night he was up yelling our names and whining and not settling down (poor spencer) but Jackson is super gassy and struggles with that so he doesn't always sleep really great but once it's been two weeks I may have to change the formula he is using if he is still struggling so much.
The cats are being really curious of baby now which is cute but they get in the way lol
One thing that's been helpful is getting up at 730 I can feed Jackson and take a shower before Isaac wakes up so then I feel fairly ready for the day
Isaac also has the pacifier back half way through the day which is a comfort for him right now so we will give it a few more days but then need to start getting rid of it again.
He will give Jackson kisses and bring Jackson a pacifier when he cries and will sometimes peek over at him to just check him out. So he has been helpful but still jealousy hits every once in awhile.
Isaac defiantly seems very big now that we have another little one around the house lol but he still is a little baby and cracks me up :)
Sorry this post is all over the place but was writing it on my phone as I had time in between watching two kids.
I don't mind taking them places but there isn't really anywhere to take them.
I did some newborns for Isaac. But since he wouldn't sleep he wouldn't let me position him in weird positions but I did get a few good ones. Going to do more within the week though and get announcements sent out soon hopefully.
Either way we are surviving but I am defiantly taking a break before we have another baby lol
Oh and one plus is Jackson doesn't seem to prefer me over anyone (right now anyways) which is kind of nice cuz I don't have to hold him 24:7 and he sleeps well in a bouncer especially when swaddled
Also spencer is back to work which was hard to accept him going back but it's a part of life. The hard part is he is still doing school so even though he may be home from work he has to go in the back room to do homework. And I know he feels bad but it's great that he is getting an education.
And with each kid we have the more I love him. He is amazing with our kids and very helpful when I need his help. And I'm grateful for the time we all have together. It's a joy watching Isaac play with daddy and giggle and smile. It brigs a smile to my face.
Surprisingly the first few days weren't too bad but daddy was good at taking care of Isaac
I would the sns a little longer but then we decided this wasn't going to work. Which is kind of frustrating because I produce milk it may take a few days but that my children struggle to wanna latch and be patient so it makes me sad but I do know there is nothing wrong with using formula. The down size is I'm losing the baby weight slower :( depressing!
The first night was a little rough with Jackson because he hurt from his circumsion but after that he sleeps a lot which I love because then I can give Isaac some attention.
I ended up with an allergic reaction to I'm not sure so I was itchy, swollen and red all over down there which is not the place to have a allergic reaction especially when your still healing from having a baby lol
Once I got steroids it started getting better yay! I wasn't as exhausted after Jackson as I was with Isaac but physically I felt like I was healing a lot slower. Especially cuz this time around I had to stop my milk and man that's a pain! They are a little better but still producing some milk. And my emotions have sure been all over the place, even though Jackson is pretty good baby I still emotionally have a hard time taking care of both of them by myself even though I've survived :)
Isaac has been getting into trouble which is expected and he hasn't been eating well which I'm sure doesn't help his crabbiness. He has been sleeping fairly decent until last night he was up yelling our names and whining and not settling down (poor spencer) but Jackson is super gassy and struggles with that so he doesn't always sleep really great but once it's been two weeks I may have to change the formula he is using if he is still struggling so much.
The cats are being really curious of baby now which is cute but they get in the way lol
One thing that's been helpful is getting up at 730 I can feed Jackson and take a shower before Isaac wakes up so then I feel fairly ready for the day
Isaac also has the pacifier back half way through the day which is a comfort for him right now so we will give it a few more days but then need to start getting rid of it again.
He will give Jackson kisses and bring Jackson a pacifier when he cries and will sometimes peek over at him to just check him out. So he has been helpful but still jealousy hits every once in awhile.
Isaac defiantly seems very big now that we have another little one around the house lol but he still is a little baby and cracks me up :)
Sorry this post is all over the place but was writing it on my phone as I had time in between watching two kids.
I don't mind taking them places but there isn't really anywhere to take them.
I did some newborns for Isaac. But since he wouldn't sleep he wouldn't let me position him in weird positions but I did get a few good ones. Going to do more within the week though and get announcements sent out soon hopefully.
Either way we are surviving but I am defiantly taking a break before we have another baby lol
Oh and one plus is Jackson doesn't seem to prefer me over anyone (right now anyways) which is kind of nice cuz I don't have to hold him 24:7 and he sleeps well in a bouncer especially when swaddled
Also spencer is back to work which was hard to accept him going back but it's a part of life. The hard part is he is still doing school so even though he may be home from work he has to go in the back room to do homework. And I know he feels bad but it's great that he is getting an education.
And with each kid we have the more I love him. He is amazing with our kids and very helpful when I need his help. And I'm grateful for the time we all have together. It's a joy watching Isaac play with daddy and giggle and smile. It brigs a smile to my face.
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Jackson's birth story
Sunday I had some contractions around 230am-4am and then they just stopped and never came back. So we had a nice family day together.
Monday I had my 38 weeks appointment. I was measuring 36 which means he dropped and was super low down. I was dilated at 4 cm and she swiped my membranes so then I became a 5.
She said she wouldn't be surprised if I had him that day or Tuesday.
No contractions and water hasn't broken so now we just wait for one of those two things to happen
Isaac kept bringing me the baby's owner manual book lol
Tuesday early morning I had some contractions on and off but still nothing consistent but of course who can sleep with that going on and Jackson is pushing and kicking like crazy which he usually doesn't do often
Then when I got up and took a shower I apparently didn't lose much bloody show last Tuesday cuz this morning I lost like 3 globs of bloody mucus so I guess I'm even closer
I kept losing more gross bloody show, I mean how much is in there??? Lol ew!
I called my doctor just not sure if I was losing too much and to be safe they had me go in to labor and delivery. And it was nothing so I went home. I was still 5 cm
Boy was I frustrated by this point since the doctor got my hopes up.
Around 2am Wednesday I got a hard contraction every hour that I would have to breathe through. But thankfully was able to always fall back asleep. :)
I got up around 8:45am with a contraction and decided to get up.
Then I started to get them sooner and harder. Isaac got up at 9/915 am and I had to breathe through a contraction and he thought that was funny how I was breathing lol
And bam they kept coming faster, I was gonna wait an hour to make sure but they became to hard so my mom came over as soon as possible and spencer headed home from work. This were a lot stronger then I ever had with Isaac which when I got to the hospital I was 7/8 cm which is probably why they were harder.
They were coming so close that I couldn't leave a Uribe sample or dress myself. Man!! And I was sweating they were so intense.
I said I wanted an epidural ASAP but they have to do all these checks to make sure first before I can get one. Ahh!
My mom and Isaac came in while I waited for spencer. Poor Isaac wanted mommy to hold him because he was super worried about me. Which was way sweet!
There were some amazing nurses that really helped me breathe a little better, And keep me semi calm. We got to the hospital at 9:45ish, and man things were going fast. Finally I got an epidural which seemed to take forever!!! I was about 8/9cm by then.
Then pretty soon we had me push but the little booger was head down but his back wasn't towards my tummy, he kept turning his head left and right so we decided to take a break and position my body to help him go to the right area.
Then I got checked later on about 12:20? The nurse was threatening him a little lol which actually made him get in the right position :) he was a stubborn boy.
So we pushed again but apparently his head was kind of big so we decided we needed a vacuum to help a bit. And it took a bit but finally we got his head out... It came out side ways lol and then out came the rest!
12:53pm Jackson Steven peacock arrived!! Only about 4 hours of labor :) He didn't poop all over me like Isaac lol he seemed so teeny!
Eventually he got his check up. 6 lbs 8 ozs, exactly a pound lighter then Isaac. 19 1/2 inches long. His head was a little deformed but that healed pretty darn quickly.
I did get a 2 degree tear but it was mostly all in the same spot that tore with Isaac and mainly just the scare tissue and no muscle. It all sewed up pretty well. My placenta kind of came out in pieces too, oh well lol
All seemed to look good! Ahhh I'm a mommy of two.
He has lots of hair, dark brown hair. And dark blue eyes. So far no birth mark spotted but he sure is cute!
He is a noise maker but it's way cute!
We decided to try and breastfeed... He sure was a stinker with that lol he just won't open his mouth wide and then won't suck or does for a second and then pulls off.
The middle part of my nipples go in which does frustrate him so we then tried a nipple shield which helped a bit but kept moving and giving me a blister. But wasn't getting food fast enough which upset him lol
So we let him have a nap and daddy and I got dinner! Yumm cuz I was sure hungry!
I did find out that if you have a full bladder you are more likely to get blood clots so you have to make sure to go potty fairly often.
I had wonderful nurses and a lactation nurse to help us!
We eventually decided to do what's called an sns it's where you feed this tube of formula to him while he sucks on your breast so he is getting food mixed with our colostrum... That thing is so simple what a miracle!! He drank then like a champ and was making me cramp which meant he was sucking on the breast good too!
So once my milk comes in good we can stop the formula part and all will hopefully be well :)
It makes this mommy very happy! He is a wide eyed baby and loves skin to skin time with mommy!
He got shots a little later and daddy helped give him a bath, he was a trooper!
Later we had my friend Kate visit and then grandma Nielsen, grandpa Nielsen, and big brother!!! Who was sadly cranky, he held Jackson for a bit but seemed jealous and didn't know what he wanted so he didn't stay long.
He's been pooping and peeing well!
To help out Isaac, spencer went home to sleep and play with him.
And Jackson and I did pretty well by ourselves :) we had aunt Jess and cousin j visit last.
He is a great sleeper! I haven't slept a ton but I've bad rest which is keeping me going so far.
He is a hard burper but eventually gets it all out.
We are all doing very well! And as long as I have a few meds and an ice pack I'm fairly comfortable. And my belly is super itchy lol
Monday I had my 38 weeks appointment. I was measuring 36 which means he dropped and was super low down. I was dilated at 4 cm and she swiped my membranes so then I became a 5.
She said she wouldn't be surprised if I had him that day or Tuesday.
No contractions and water hasn't broken so now we just wait for one of those two things to happen
Isaac kept bringing me the baby's owner manual book lol
Tuesday early morning I had some contractions on and off but still nothing consistent but of course who can sleep with that going on and Jackson is pushing and kicking like crazy which he usually doesn't do often
Then when I got up and took a shower I apparently didn't lose much bloody show last Tuesday cuz this morning I lost like 3 globs of bloody mucus so I guess I'm even closer
I kept losing more gross bloody show, I mean how much is in there??? Lol ew!
I called my doctor just not sure if I was losing too much and to be safe they had me go in to labor and delivery. And it was nothing so I went home. I was still 5 cm
Boy was I frustrated by this point since the doctor got my hopes up.
Around 2am Wednesday I got a hard contraction every hour that I would have to breathe through. But thankfully was able to always fall back asleep. :)
I got up around 8:45am with a contraction and decided to get up.
Then I started to get them sooner and harder. Isaac got up at 9/915 am and I had to breathe through a contraction and he thought that was funny how I was breathing lol
And bam they kept coming faster, I was gonna wait an hour to make sure but they became to hard so my mom came over as soon as possible and spencer headed home from work. This were a lot stronger then I ever had with Isaac which when I got to the hospital I was 7/8 cm which is probably why they were harder.
They were coming so close that I couldn't leave a Uribe sample or dress myself. Man!! And I was sweating they were so intense.
I said I wanted an epidural ASAP but they have to do all these checks to make sure first before I can get one. Ahh!
My mom and Isaac came in while I waited for spencer. Poor Isaac wanted mommy to hold him because he was super worried about me. Which was way sweet!
There were some amazing nurses that really helped me breathe a little better, And keep me semi calm. We got to the hospital at 9:45ish, and man things were going fast. Finally I got an epidural which seemed to take forever!!! I was about 8/9cm by then.
Then pretty soon we had me push but the little booger was head down but his back wasn't towards my tummy, he kept turning his head left and right so we decided to take a break and position my body to help him go to the right area.
Then I got checked later on about 12:20? The nurse was threatening him a little lol which actually made him get in the right position :) he was a stubborn boy.
So we pushed again but apparently his head was kind of big so we decided we needed a vacuum to help a bit. And it took a bit but finally we got his head out... It came out side ways lol and then out came the rest!
12:53pm Jackson Steven peacock arrived!! Only about 4 hours of labor :) He didn't poop all over me like Isaac lol he seemed so teeny!
Eventually he got his check up. 6 lbs 8 ozs, exactly a pound lighter then Isaac. 19 1/2 inches long. His head was a little deformed but that healed pretty darn quickly.
I did get a 2 degree tear but it was mostly all in the same spot that tore with Isaac and mainly just the scare tissue and no muscle. It all sewed up pretty well. My placenta kind of came out in pieces too, oh well lol
All seemed to look good! Ahhh I'm a mommy of two.
He has lots of hair, dark brown hair. And dark blue eyes. So far no birth mark spotted but he sure is cute!
He is a noise maker but it's way cute!
We decided to try and breastfeed... He sure was a stinker with that lol he just won't open his mouth wide and then won't suck or does for a second and then pulls off.
The middle part of my nipples go in which does frustrate him so we then tried a nipple shield which helped a bit but kept moving and giving me a blister. But wasn't getting food fast enough which upset him lol
So we let him have a nap and daddy and I got dinner! Yumm cuz I was sure hungry!
I did find out that if you have a full bladder you are more likely to get blood clots so you have to make sure to go potty fairly often.
I had wonderful nurses and a lactation nurse to help us!
We eventually decided to do what's called an sns it's where you feed this tube of formula to him while he sucks on your breast so he is getting food mixed with our colostrum... That thing is so simple what a miracle!! He drank then like a champ and was making me cramp which meant he was sucking on the breast good too!
So once my milk comes in good we can stop the formula part and all will hopefully be well :)
It makes this mommy very happy! He is a wide eyed baby and loves skin to skin time with mommy!
He got shots a little later and daddy helped give him a bath, he was a trooper!
Later we had my friend Kate visit and then grandma Nielsen, grandpa Nielsen, and big brother!!! Who was sadly cranky, he held Jackson for a bit but seemed jealous and didn't know what he wanted so he didn't stay long.
He's been pooping and peeing well!
To help out Isaac, spencer went home to sleep and play with him.
And Jackson and I did pretty well by ourselves :) we had aunt Jess and cousin j visit last.
He is a great sleeper! I haven't slept a ton but I've bad rest which is keeping me going so far.
He is a hard burper but eventually gets it all out.
We are all doing very well! And as long as I have a few meds and an ice pack I'm fairly comfortable. And my belly is super itchy lol
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