Career Path

Thanks to my husband and a good night’s sleep last night I think I’m ready…

He has been telling me I need to figure out a career that I’m going to love. I complain about the job I have because of boredom. I am tired of sitting at a desk all day answering phones that barely ring and doing things on the computer just to keep me entertained. I have played. Spider

Solitaire WAY

too much and play it in my mind sometimes.

I should LOVE what I do but I realized answer phones just isn’t my thing. Sitting at a desk the whole 5 ½ hours isn’t my thing.

My wish is to do something I love and not be too busy or too bored. Just be perfect in the middle.

Things I’ve always wanted to do:

1. Psychology of some sort
2. Elementary Teacher
3. Child care/nanny
4. Photography
5. Own a bookstore

I just don’t feel anything popping out to me right now. And 1, 2 are A LOT of schooling still to do.  Then 3, I have some schooling to take but not much, and some peoples kids drive me crazy so you would never know if you’d get lucky or not. Then 4 I love and you don’t have to go to school to be a professional, but I always struggled with understanding all of photography terms, then if you don’t get a lot of clients there won’t be much income. Now owning my own bookstore would be amazing BUT it cost money to start one up and we aren’t financially prepared for that.

What do I do?

Keep going to school somewhere until I figure it out?

Look around for jobs until I find one I like?

Stay at my current job as long as I can handle?

What I have started to do is pray for guidance in where I need to take my life/school/career.

I just feel so unaccomplished at work and there isn’t much I can do. I feel lonely because no one comes up to talk to me much. I go insane just listening to my voice. I love the people I work with. I ask for projects every now and then but it’s been kind of slow.

I mean I’ve always wanted to be a mom but we aren’t ready for that yet and that costs more money, you don’t earn income from being a mom. You get points for being a great parent and earn love but right now we need to save on money and get settled in and a little bit farther in our career choices. Some how jobs always seem to come up for me when I need them so I know something will click.

I am kind of thinking I need to go to school still but that would be expensive and we don’t want to take out a loan unless we HAVE to. I have two classes left at LDS Business College then I’ll be done in December.

Oh the joys of growing up! =] I just want to love everything about where I work and feel accomplished but not stressed. That’s probably everyone’s dream.

Wish me Luck, I’m not sure where to start.

Jessica Sue Haworth (Nielsen)

Yesterday I went over to my sister Jessica’s house to get some ribbon. Now my sister has been a single mother for about a year and a half, it will be 2 years in September. Yesterday it struck me that she was a single mother. I knew she was but for some reason it didn’t hit me until then. (yes i know i'm a little slow)The overwhelming love I had for her at the random moment was amazing. I realized how incredible she is. She has been through hell and back and if you looked at her now you’d never know. She has a 4 year old boy, Jerimiah, who we call J or JJ. He is an incredible little boy and I believe it’s because of the love Jessica has shown him and the things she has taught him. I don’t know if I EVER could be a single mother. I’m sure she never thought she would be either but she has shown people that it is possible to raise a child on your own if the circumstances call for it.

While we were standing there talking I just looked around and I’ve seen how much she has accomplished. She has raised a handsome little boy who is just hilarious, smart, and talkative. She has a great job were she loves (now that giggle giggle is gone) the people she works with and the job itself. She also has this home that’s organized, beautiful, lived in, and has the spirit dwelling in it. She makes time for the important things. Jessica works out when she can, takes care of a 4 year old, watches some of her favorite shows/movies, cooks, works, cleans the house, does the yard work, plays with J, sews projects, and even has time to blog about her life. Now isn’t that incredible?

I know our parents have helped her a lot with the car and household things here and there. For the most part she has done it on her own with help from various people once in awhile.

But she is a great example to me and I hope that I am as great of a mother one day as she is now.

Thank you!

Side note: Can you believe she trusts me to watch Jerimiah sometimes. Crazy I know!

Jessica & Jerimiah

Lunchtime and other thoughts

Loneliness is the best way to describe lunch time at work.

Pretty much EVERYONE leaves so I’m left all by myself.

1. I have to man the phones
2. I don’t get asked to go out to eat with everyone because I have to stay behind.
3. I am left with customers that want to talk to someone so they yell at me because no one is answering. I try to explain it’s lunch time here so they are at lunch (WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO!!!)
4. All of my break people have left and I need to use the restroom… but there is no one to take over for me while I run to the bathroom, so then I have to try to hold it the best I can. (doesn’t seem right to me, but I asked my boss and she said if no one is available I can go and leave the desk for a minute. Phew)

I was once told that not everyone goes to lunch at the same time… pretty much a lie. Trust me I know, I am here when I try to get a hold of people and NO ONE ANSWERS! I’ve decided that answering telephones isn’t really my thing, but filing and computer stuff isn’t too bad. I can’t wait until I get my dream job “my own library” =]

I thought it weird to email my boss and ask her but I need to know what I do when no one is here to take over for me for a few minutes. (Because I was told I’m not allowed to leave my desk area)

I love my job but there are a few things that could be tweaked. Man if I was pregnant here I could only imagine because I already go to the bathroom enough as it is. Lol

On a different note working out is going pretty good. =] I am pretty proud of myself for sticking with it. I had people place bets on how long I’d last, and I want to win and show them I can do the whole 9 weeks (and even longer)! I want to feel good about myself but I don’t want to be pushed too hard, Spencer is pretty good at making sure I do it.

I know about 20 people engaged, it’s insane, but awesome! Like my mom said “Love is in the air” it sure seems like it. <3 Shall I name them all?

Married life is great, we are learning more and more about each other and it’s a great experience. I have this one friend of mine named Julia, who was married about a year ago and she has been helpful with some advice every now and then. She is soon to have a baby girl =]

The weather is just beautiful today =] It’s cloudy and cool, not too cold and not too hot. I LOVE it! It’s FRIDAY!

I love just sitting here and typing all the random thoughts that come to my mind…

There are SO many things I am looking forward to in my future! =]

BUT I need to try and focus better on the here and now. Sometimes I am dreaming so much about the future that I miss the things I should be grateful for that are RIGHT in front of me. I need to slow down a bit and take a step back.

One thing I love, a tradition Spencer and I have kind of started is every night from about 9-10pm we watch an episode of Doctor Who! =] It’s my new favorite show thanks to the Peacock Family haha

You know what also BOGGLES my mind is how we hear ourselves different than other people hear us. So when you go back and listen to a recording of yourself you are taken back by the sound. Am I right? I kind of like what I hear rather than what others hear but oh well you get over it.

WE’RE GOING CAMPING ON PIONEER WEEKEND!!! =] I’m really excited; now we just have to make sure we covered all the holes in our air mattress.

1. We kind of hope some other people will come camping too but if not it’s okay.
2. We still need to figure out where. Far enough away from the city but close enough so we don’t have a super long travel time to get there and back.

I am kind of excited which is unusual because I hate camping but it’s been awhile.

Pros:

1. Stories around the camp fire
2. S’mores & yummy snacks
3. Cozy warm sleeping bags to keep me warm =]
4. A husband to also keep me warm
5. Spending time with nature
6. Hopefully taking beautiful pictures =]

Cons:

1. No showering (unless there is a lake to take a quick dip in )
2. No bathrooms (unless the camping area has port a potties, which I hope)
3. No TV for my workout DVD’s (maybe we’ll just go hiking and running to still keep on schedule with my workouts.)

How exciting =]

Off I go to keep myself busy at work. haha