Last night I was lying in bed and starting thinking about a few things. Since I started this healthy eating/ fitness challenge group I started thinking about things a little differently. I start these groups and usually only stick with them for so long and then give up or other things take over. Life is always unpredictable.
I usually start them and do well because I have maybe low self esteem in maybe the physical area of life. I get to a point where I need some sort of change because i'm not liking the way I look or feel.
While I was lying in bed I had the thought of it's not that I think i'm fat, even though I've had those thoughts. (i'm sure most girls do even if they don't look fat to you, we just think those things about ourselves.) I think deep down we actually are upset that we aren't doing the best we can or being the best we can in whatever area it is we are struggling with.
I think working out deep down isn't always just because we are "fat" but because we know our body deserves better and can physically become better in strength. There is no "perfect" body image so what are we even aiming for if we go by weight.
We get so down about ourselves knowing we can be better at everything we do and are upset that we are letting ourselves down.
We let doubt and life take over the most important things, we become lazy.
That's not fair to our bodies, our bodies and minds deserve so much better.
Not everyone is bad at these areas but I personally am.
Also i'm not saying we can't indulge in sweets, because everything needs a little sweetness but we've all heard "find the happy medium" not too much of this or too little of that.
I could be so much smarter then I am, my poor brain is suffering because of my lacking of becoming more educated in anything.
I could be so much healthier, but my laziness has made my body be less then what it could be.
"I'm a work in progress" -Sandi So true!
Just some thoughts and examples, hopefully it made sense. Just a few areas I know I lack in.
A few quotes I found that went along with this
"Healthy is an outfit that looks different on everybody"
"Be fearless and love yourself for who you are"
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Monday, November 9, 2015
Fairy Tale
"Today was a fairytale" taken from Taylor Swifts song. This got me thinking, I mean so far today has seemed in some ways like a fairytale.
I used to kind of hate Fairy tales for the way they make you think life should be magical or soon will be when you grow up. Because life is anything but a fairytale especially when you grow up. But there are some days when life is happiness, and magical and bliss.
Fairytales...
They can take you away from the world when you just need an escape and dream of magical things because life isn't easy and sometimes you have really hard days.
But I also believe that there are days that can be magical if you take on life the right way. And you should always strive for those magical type days and accept that there will always be those days in the mixture of this crazy world.
Just a little random thought that came to my mind this morning as Taylor Swift was playing in the background =]
Today I decided to get up and ready around 5:30am because Jackson usually wakes me up anyways so why not get up and at least shower before he wakes up.
Well when I do this, he decides to sleep until 6:30 or later, so I end up getting ready and say prayers and read scriptures and other things before he gets up which is fantastic and is partly why maybe my day went pretty well.
I hate waking up early but when I'm ready and have something's done before the boys wake up it makes it worth it!
Then when Isaac got up at 8, we got ready and headed to the grocery store! Afterwards we stopped to get the car looked out and fixed.
I'm very grateful to have found this jiffy lube that's close by and they have taken really good care of us which is a weight off my shoulders.
They vacuumed out the car seats and cleaned the windows and even gave us a little discount which they didn't have to do but is MUCH appreciated. I got home and realized that they didn't charge us for something I know they did so I called and double checked so I will be going back to pay for that. And he seemed surprised that I would call about that and then come and pay it.
That's the right thing to do and I'm that kind of person if I notice it.
Then randomly, not many people smash their boxes and things to put into the recycle bin, which is gross and frustrating even when the complex has asked us to do that. It's just respectful. I went out to take the boxes to the bin and had my scissors and was smashing them down and a random person said thank you, she said I hate when people don't smash them down. I said, me too! She didn't have to even say that but it made my day feeling that someone saw me do something good and pointed it out.
There is a friend from High School that is doing this thing called The Gaston Approach about accomplishing things in life and setting goals. So that's been helpful as I've been trying to do better in all my areas I struggle in.
On a Happy Side note, my bestie Channelle might be coming out for thanksgiving!!! I'm really excited and hope she is able to make it. She's pretty much awesome, and I love her to pieces.
On a sad side note, I'm struggling to fit in in this Ward. It's not a bad ward and I have met wonderful people, but something just feels off so I've been thinking about what needs to change on my end of this. And maybe put past ward things in the past because they do things different here. But maybe its also because I know we aren't meant to stay in this ward forever and so for now I'm just going there until we buy a house somewhere else. In possibly a year, but love the people I've met but I am in the age range that most of these people aren't in so there is not a lot of people in my chapter of life.
But I do love the people I've met don't get me wrong, its a nice ward just isn't my life time ward.
We are taking Christmas pictures in a few days or a week, i'm excited just hope this lame Oregon weather will let us get some good ones outside. I'm not very fond of the rainy season here....but managing.
I've been running and loving it, surprisingly running in the evening has been going pretty well instead of dragging myself up in the morning. I've enjoyed the 30-40 minutes of me time and exercise time, its tough but I've been doing well and pushing myself and feeling fantastic.
Alright this never flows as nicely as I hope and is always random things thrown together, as much as I would love to write a book someday, I'm kind of all over the place.
I used to kind of hate Fairy tales for the way they make you think life should be magical or soon will be when you grow up. Because life is anything but a fairytale especially when you grow up. But there are some days when life is happiness, and magical and bliss.
Fairytales...
They can take you away from the world when you just need an escape and dream of magical things because life isn't easy and sometimes you have really hard days.
But I also believe that there are days that can be magical if you take on life the right way. And you should always strive for those magical type days and accept that there will always be those days in the mixture of this crazy world.
Just a little random thought that came to my mind this morning as Taylor Swift was playing in the background =]
Today I decided to get up and ready around 5:30am because Jackson usually wakes me up anyways so why not get up and at least shower before he wakes up.
Well when I do this, he decides to sleep until 6:30 or later, so I end up getting ready and say prayers and read scriptures and other things before he gets up which is fantastic and is partly why maybe my day went pretty well.
I hate waking up early but when I'm ready and have something's done before the boys wake up it makes it worth it!
Then when Isaac got up at 8, we got ready and headed to the grocery store! Afterwards we stopped to get the car looked out and fixed.
I'm very grateful to have found this jiffy lube that's close by and they have taken really good care of us which is a weight off my shoulders.
They vacuumed out the car seats and cleaned the windows and even gave us a little discount which they didn't have to do but is MUCH appreciated. I got home and realized that they didn't charge us for something I know they did so I called and double checked so I will be going back to pay for that. And he seemed surprised that I would call about that and then come and pay it.
That's the right thing to do and I'm that kind of person if I notice it.
Then randomly, not many people smash their boxes and things to put into the recycle bin, which is gross and frustrating even when the complex has asked us to do that. It's just respectful. I went out to take the boxes to the bin and had my scissors and was smashing them down and a random person said thank you, she said I hate when people don't smash them down. I said, me too! She didn't have to even say that but it made my day feeling that someone saw me do something good and pointed it out.
There is a friend from High School that is doing this thing called The Gaston Approach about accomplishing things in life and setting goals. So that's been helpful as I've been trying to do better in all my areas I struggle in.
On a Happy Side note, my bestie Channelle might be coming out for thanksgiving!!! I'm really excited and hope she is able to make it. She's pretty much awesome, and I love her to pieces.
On a sad side note, I'm struggling to fit in in this Ward. It's not a bad ward and I have met wonderful people, but something just feels off so I've been thinking about what needs to change on my end of this. And maybe put past ward things in the past because they do things different here. But maybe its also because I know we aren't meant to stay in this ward forever and so for now I'm just going there until we buy a house somewhere else. In possibly a year, but love the people I've met but I am in the age range that most of these people aren't in so there is not a lot of people in my chapter of life.
But I do love the people I've met don't get me wrong, its a nice ward just isn't my life time ward.
We are taking Christmas pictures in a few days or a week, i'm excited just hope this lame Oregon weather will let us get some good ones outside. I'm not very fond of the rainy season here....but managing.
I've been running and loving it, surprisingly running in the evening has been going pretty well instead of dragging myself up in the morning. I've enjoyed the 30-40 minutes of me time and exercise time, its tough but I've been doing well and pushing myself and feeling fantastic.
Alright this never flows as nicely as I hope and is always random things thrown together, as much as I would love to write a book someday, I'm kind of all over the place.
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