Wednesday, December 31, 2014

New Years Resolution

I LOVE going on vacations but let me tell you they sure throw off routine and then it takes forever to get back in your routine when you get back from vacation lol

Each new year we grow and change a little bit more and strive to become a better us and better spouse and better mother each day.

Here are a few resolutions I've come up with, I love the new year because it makes us think about the things we want to do better on. If we don't do them this new year we've always got the next year.

Less time on devices and TV

Get healthy not just lose weight but be stronger and have more energy to play with my boys

Lear to love God more

Drink 8 8oz of water daily!

Try to be positive

Have at least one date a month with Spencer

Put Isaac back on his food routine with no snacks

Also trying to communicate my feelings more...can't guarantee this one, I always say I will and I always fail at it but someday I will get it down

Trying to wake up at a certain time each morning and go to bed at a certain time each night


Our goals for Isaac is to potty train and take away the pacifier for night time (starting all this around age 2)

Our goals for Jackson is to move him into a crib in his own room (sometime around 3 months old) and the normal like crawling and walking by the end of the year

Have a Happy New Year!!

We probably will not be staying up until midnight, once you have kids, they wake you up enough during the night so you should go to bed as early as they do lol
I like my sleep =]
If I was still in High School or College I would be ALL up for it, I loved hanging with friends and loved ones up until the new year =]
I will love it even more when my kids are old enough to stay up with us

Monday, December 22, 2014

Christmas Spirit

Saturday night my wonderful husband took me to the Piano Guys concert.... AMAZING!! They are more popular as of these last few years and this was their first tour.
They are very funny and super talented. I was laughing and singing and feeling the spirit. These are LDS (Mormon) middle aged dads but they were great!
What as nice is you had a mixture of fun and a mixture of spiritual especially since it was mainly a Christmas concert.
Check them out on YouTube if you don't know who they are (The Piano Guys)
One of their performances almost brought me to tears. It was Angels We Have Heard on High, and it was SO LOUD but I felt the Spirit SO strong and it was unbelievable.

Then on Sunday our Ward always does a musical Sacrament Meeting on the Sunday before Christmas.... it's my favorite Sacrament meeting =]
That was always a beautiful day, one youth group sang "Come unto Christ", it was a beautiful song!
And of course the Piano/Organ Duet to O Holy Night =]

Then in Relief Society the speaker told us to close our eyes and listen to scriptures about Mary & Joseph and put ourselves in their shoes. Now what really got me was the opening where she set the scene for us, not the scripture reading.

She said remember how scared she must of been, no doctors, no medicine, no pads for after delivery, and no comfy beds.
And it just really hit me, because recently I had a baby boy and i'm pretty young but not as young as Mary was (about 16), I was 22 and 23 when I had a baby.
Thankfully she had a wonderful husband there with her to help.

Now I know the pain of delivery but only to 9cm contraction pains not actually having the baby with pain. And I got to wondering where was her mom? I don't know what I would of done without my mom especially the first time. She had kids before she helped me through my breathing through contractions and talked to distract me.
And I am very grateful for her. So where was Mary's mom what did she think of all of this and did she help her?

Let me also point out I was VERY grateful for my husband, Spencer, as well. He's not so great with the actual delivering baby part but he stands by or sits close by and it's just a comfort to have him there even though he can't do a whole bunch. There are people there that know what they are doing and can help me.

With my second baby my mom had to watch Isaac but she stayed with me until Spencer got there, and I would of done fairly well even if she wasn't there but it was good to have her close by and when I saw Spencer finally there I breathed a sigh of relief just knowing he was there and he held my hand when I needed him too.

And I can imagine that Angels or Heavenly Father helped Mary & Joseph prepare and know what to expect and I can just see Joseph holding her hand and just being there for her. Even though he couldn't of fully understand what she was going through.

(Side note supposedly back in the day labor & delivery wasn't as painful as it has become now so it's possible she wasn't in tons of pain or really scared but we weren't there so honestly we don't know all of it)

I would love to talk to Mary about her thoughts and memories of that moment in her life though, that would be an interesting story.

Anyways it was all a very great Sunday on the spiritual side of it all and thought I would share. It may not seem like Christmas much this year but still an amazing time of year.

I hope everyone has a very merry Christmas and a happy new year

Sleepless nights

This isn't a post on lying in bed not being able to sleep, even though I've had one or two of those nights. This is about being a parent and you don't have a choice by how much or how little of sleep you are given each night.
Because I am a stay at home mom I am able to snag a nap here and there or sleep in a little longer depending on when Isaac gets up and i'm very grateful for that. I LOVE my sleep!

The past two-three nights we have gotten TERRIBLE sleep because of Isaac and partly because of Jackson.
Between Isaac getting teeth, not feeling 100%, being hungry but not eating much and not getting enough sleep he has NOT been going to bed very well and we've been up until midnight sometimes with him and sometimes up and down through out the night.

It's very hard especially when your the mom and can't seem to comfort or help your child, especially since he wont cuddle with me even when he is sick. Sometimes he will sit on my lap to watch part of a show but he wont stay there for long. He has been loving daddy more lately which is sad but I love their father son bond.

It's funny because I think as parents we need sleep to help our children but when you become parents that's one thing you lack the most lol

I'm extra emotional when I don't get enough sleep and that doesn't help being patient when your child is being cranky and whiny and screaming. Thankfully Spencer is great at helping take care of the boys and we will trade of with the boys.

But most of all its just very hard when you don't know how to make them feel better or whats bothering them.

I am thankful for the gospel in that it helps when we can give blessings to help comfort or help heal our loved ones.

I felt bad because yesterday was a very emotional day for me and I think lack of sleep and being a women knocks your emotions all over the place and it's not fun because you just cant seem to control it.

I felt the spirit quite a bit today especially at church and that was amazing and then I was sad and angry for like fifty different reasons through out the day, some were probably really stupid but they upset me during that day.

And it seemed no matter what I kept running into an upsetting situation but I didn't know how to express myself without crying so I just never said anything because who likes sobbing like a baby in front of someone for a stupid reason even if its a family member. I've never been a fan of that so that's why I usually never say when i'm upset over something lol

This was a very all over the place post but the conclude: get as much sleep as possible especially if your a women and a mother lol

Thank heavens Spencer is off all this week!

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Forgetting Pain

You've probably all heard that once you've had a baby you forget about the pain you went through to have that baby or else you wouldn't have another baby.

There are a few thoughts I have to this saying.

1. I have NOT forgotten that pain, it is still there in my mind

2. I think we "forget" in the sense that we are SO glad we don't feel it anymore that we are paying attention to how much better we feel. Because I hate the way I feel when i'm sick and always "forget" how I feel when i'm sick because I appreciate how good I DO feel when i'm not sick.

I don't think its based all on pregnancy/delivery pain because we don't often dwell on the bad pains we feel when we aren't feeling them.

And then just on a side note even though I remember that pain I think we "forget" the pain because of the overwhelming love we have for our newborn baby we now see. And I would go through that pain all over again to have more children...I've already done it twice lol

(I thought I had more to say on this matter but I guess I didn't) lol

Monday, December 15, 2014

The emotions of a Mother

As individuals we always have at least one of "those days" where life just is not going well. But I feel once you become a mother you might have more of these lol I mean now you are responsible for keeping your babies alive daily!

I was watching an episode of How I met your Mother Season 8 episode 13: Band or DJ?
and there is a line where Lily says "Sometimes I wish I wasn't a mother and would pack a bag and leave and never come back" (not exact quote)
And it got me thinking... I've had this thought once or twice before. I hate to admit it but i'm sure you guys have had the thought at least once in your life time if not you i'm sure you will one day.

Mixed with maybe a bad day where your kid is just doing EVERYTHING to push your buttons or screaming/crying ALL day or you are just super emotional (I mean we are women lol) It could be for the littlest thing. You may notice I never post pictures of my kids crying or throwing a tantrum and that's because those are the things I don't want to dwell on or remember in the future, I want to remember all their sweet moments and smiling faces. (that's just me, doesn't mean your a bad person if you post those types of pictures)

There are just those days when you realize your life will never be the same as it used to be. I hate to say "your life is over" but in a way it is, more like your just ending a chapter of your life and starting a new one. Sometimes I wish I could just go travel or go out dancing late at night with my friends or just crazy things like that but I can't do that. But that's okay!

My point is I've had a day(s) like this but then there are those amazing days when you feel SO blessed! When you look at your children and can not believe that you grew those sweet babies inside you and now you are helping them learn new things and grow. And then you are SO proud of them because you see them doing something you have been trying to teach them. Or those silly things you realize they learned just because little kids watch everything you do.

Being a parent and growing up is not an easy task. It is THEE hardest job I've ever had but its THEE most amazing job I've ever had and I would never give it up. It has taught me SO much and there have been lots of ups and downs but the love I have for my children is SO great!

Just yesterday I was thinking that I love my kids so much that i'm always giving them LOTS of kisses. And I realized that's STILL not enough to express how much I love them. I just want to squeeze them and hold them ALL day and night!

I've always wanted to be a mother but no matter how many times I had been told motherhood is hard I still would of made the choice I made. And it still doesn't prepare you for all the emotions you feel once you become a mother. 

But I have been blessed with an AMAZING husband who is the BEST Father to our little boys.
Isaac is my sweet loving boy who loves to laugh and Jackson is pretty chill (too young to know his personality just yet)

my favorite picture of us together, like 3 weeks before I got pregnant lol

my 18 month old Isaac
my super cute 1 month old

they are bonding =]

my boys =]