Like most of you know I am not really good with Goodbye's. I am really terrible at them actually. Lately people have been leaving for the break except a few of us. I hate to see them leave but one person I couldn't stop thinking of was David.
I've known him since June. I may have seen him slightly before that but the memory I most remember is the Stake service camp-out. As Suki and I were painting the cabins he followed us around while playing songs on his guitar. I can still picture it now like it was yesterday.
David and I have been through a whole heck of a lot together. He's one guy I knew I could trust. We've had our history of dating. We know how we work together. When I needed someone he was the guy I could call to come pick me up and we would be out for hours talking, laughing, crying. We had our moments though of frustration with each other just like everyone else.
Yesterday I had to say Goodbye to him for about 2 1/2 years or more. I was thinking about it all days so close to tears. It was most difficult at work because I had to work a double and I was going to miss him coming over to say goodbye. I couldn't decide if it was better to have him leave without me having to say goodbye or if it was good to face it and accept it and say goodbye.
Luckily, I had a 3 hour break between shifts and I left to come home and wait for him to stop by. I watched One Tree Hill to distract myself. Then decided I should put away my clothes... then I heard the knock at the door. I knew it was him, I took a deep breath and opened the door. I couldn't look him in the eye, I tried to not stand too close and I played off everything we said. Like I said, I didn't want to admit that he was actually leaving. Then he went to give me a hug.
As us girls know....BIG mistake, the tears started to finally fall. It felt good to finally cry but I it was a sad cry. He was leaving me (not just me but you know what I mean). This hurt more then anything! I didn't want him to leave, I held on as tight as I could and he knew. I told him I just don't want you to go. He let go and looked at me but I couldnt look at him. He wiped some tears from my face and pulled me back in.
I know that I will see him again and for awhile I can still text or talk to him but it's not the same. I know I have other friends but this last month I realized how much he actually meant to me and it was too late. He was going and it's all for a good reason. A mission is really important.
The time came and he did have to go so I opened the door to say goodbye to Houston... they started walking away and he turned half way around while walking and said Bye. And I lost it all over again but shut the door before he knew. And I just cried, I needed to though.
Then Suki came home and I had just gotten a hold of myself again and tears came down again when she asked if I was okay. But I had to go to work so I pulled myself back together again.
When I got to work everyone asked if I was alright and I said no not really and they would ask why and I said if I tell you I will cry all over again and I don't want to do that at work.
I am glad I had work though because towards the end of the night I was happy and laughing. But when I did get home I went to bed early.
I am alright now but if I had money I would fly out to see him in a heartbeat! But that probably wouldn't be a good idea because he is probably really busy.
He was the sweetest guy I've ever met and he would do anything for me. I may have gotten upset with him a few times or more but I cared about him more then anyone knew. He made me a better person and that I will forever be grateful for!
And I still have the notecards he wrote on saying "Thanks... For being amazing" they are attached to my wall. He always made me laugh, and understood me. He was one of the greatest friends, and I am glad I was able to meet him and get to know him.
p.s. of COURSE Taylor Swift had to be playing in the background when he came over to say goodbye.
Life moves on and I will do my best and I will keep in touch. He is going to be a really good missionary. =]
All I can say is that I am really glad it's the break because I can be sad if I want to but I won't sit around all day. Some how I will keep myself busy.
Thanks David for everything!
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| Corn Maze, last picture together |
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| My ER buddy!! |
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| Late nights at Denny's, shots!!! |
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| The first weekend we met |
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