Already gone

Already Gone By: Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/already-gone-lyrics.html )
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone.

This song fits pretty well with my life and how Jeff was saying we all are on our own road/path. It's time to move on and get over everything but it''s really hard. Especially cuz idk if I could live with finally being over things. If that makes since.
"Come back to me, like this was a movie" I want him to run over here in the rain and beg me back. But nothing will ever change. I am being ridiculous I know!!! But right now I can not help it. I don't have enough distractions in life to do so. I just want it back to the way it was before, when everything made since in my head. Or if I had realized everything before it was too late. But I can't take anything back.

It's a good thing I have work because if I didn't I would be at home on the couch moaping around. I dont work Sunday, Monday, Thursday.... those are gonna be hard days. I can't believe Christmas is almost here, I am not ready for it. But I am ready for a new year, maybe this one will be better, or a little easier. I am tired of holding on to things, its time to let go but it's harder and harder every day.
Better get ready for my double, ugh work is the same old routine, kinda boring and tiring. But I keep smiling.
Sorry my posts are so depressing.