drawn to people

Let me first start off with saying, both my boys are napping at the same time...it's magical.
And second I have fallen IN love with quotes lately. I find so many that seem to say exactly what I feel but didn't know how to say. They just hit home to me.

I constantly have lots of things going on in my head and blogging helps me get it out there even if not that many people care to read my posts. Maybe one day one might inspire someone or help someone struggling or help them feel that they aren't the only one that feels a certain way.

I love finding people that I have common interests with. But I always love getting to know all sorts of people. But I've found I'm drawn to a certain type of person most of the time. And I think that it's usually becomes I wish I had their personality or that I looked like them. Or maybe I need to learn something from them or they need to learn something from me. If we become friends that's a happy bonus if we don't then hopefully we learned something along the way.

Moving to Oregon I had to meet new people. Even though I have friends back in Utah or wherever they've moved to, talking over the phone isn't always as nice as getting together in person. ( Miss you tons Channelle) But either way thank heavens for technology when we do need that best friend to talk to about the random things in life.

My main point is I think we meet or run into people for a reason even if we may not know why until later in life. And like I said in my last post, I care what people think about me. (i'm trying to work on that) I always have, and people lie all the time that I always wonder if someone is just saying something because they know its what I want to hear or what they think they should say but it's not what they really mean.
I always worry about being that person that is annoying to someone when really i'm just trying to get to know you, it can be fun getting to know a new person especially if you find common likes and dislikes.

I just try to remind myself that everyone has their own lives and just because things come up or change doesn't mean it was because of me. (eek maybe I act a little selfish when i'm talking to myself in my head)

We are all focused on our own lives that it's easy to pass by and maybe forget about others. I'm sure I do the same things to other people. I try never to make people feel left out but it can happen so easily.
Yesterday I realized that i'm more of a one on one person, and I get lost in a group of people. I have more fun with a very small group of people. I love talking to usually just 1 or 2 people at a time and just focusing on that person.

I'm a work in progress people ( who isn't), we all have our own things in life we struggle with. We just don't always talk about how we feel now a days and sometimes then problems don't get resolved. I am terrible at communicating how I feel to the person I may be upset with because I feel like they would think I was being childish for expressing my feelings.

So when we meet a person they may not stay in our life forever but that doesn't mean we can't show them our best self and even sometimes our worst self. It's nice to share even out faults with a person because who knows maybe they have a great helpful tip or are going through the same thing.

As usually this was kind of all over the place and i'm sure I've missed some points I was going to catch up on but 1 child is up and crying sooo I will wrap this up with once again a few more quotes that I love.

"If someone seriously wants to be a part of your life, they will seriously make an effort to be in it. no reasons. no excuses."
"There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need to change your life, or you're the one that'll change theirs."
"All I need is someone who can stay no matter how hard it is to be with me."
"I need someone in my life who is going to motivate me and who can match my goals and ambition
"You have to believe in yourself when no one else does- that makes you a winner right there."