Circumsion

Let me first start off by saying I know I didn't have to get him circumsised but it's what we both decided on. And everyone has their own opinion on the matter but keep that all to yourself because it's already done.

It took us FOREVER to finally get him in and get his circumsion done. If we ever have another boy it's getting done in the hospital right after and or I now know to schedule it as soon as possible.
We had a great doctor that did it, he's a great guy.
My mom was able to go to the appointment with me. We heard him screaming (They need sound proof walls for that room) Now he was screaming because he didn't want to be strapped down and naked but I didn't know that at the time and I also just knew what was going to happen to him so it made me sad.

It's hard being a mother of a son, one when you choose to get them circumsised you know in the long run it will be better for them but at the moment you feel like a terrible person because you made the choice for them to be hurt. It sounds silly and all mom's see it differently but that's how I saw it. And I know i'm not a bad person for doing it, it was just how I felt.

When he came out he looked pretty content and that made me feel better. I went home and went to pump and when I came back upstairs he was screaming. I could tell it was a different kind of cry then i've heard from him before. I knew it was a cry of pain and it broke my heart. So we gave him medicine and it took FOREVER to kick in. I'm glad my parents were still here. He cried and I knew that nothing was going to make him stop so then I started to cry. I just couldn't help it, so he would cry then I would cry. Thankfully my parents stayed a little later then they planned and they took turns holding him a little.

It is just so much harder on a mother then the child, but it's because you know they are in pain and that's just the worst. I wanted to undo it so he wouldn't hurt anymore. Thankfully Spencer decided to come home a little earlier from work. But of course by that time Isaac was already pretty good cuz the medicine kicked in. I was just emotionally drained of course.

But I was just so grateful he was home, I wish he worked from home a lot of the time because it would make a few things easier.

We've kept up with the medicine because we don't want him in pain. I know they say try to avoid giving him medicine non stop. But I am doing it at a normal amount and tomorrow we will probably stop to see if he is doing better. Because then I won't be home alone with a screaming baby.

I just don't do well with crying babies I know that sounds weird but honestly Isaac doesn't cry much and if he does it's for a reason so I can fix it. But when it's a cry that I can't fix for him right away then it just makes me cry. Then we are just two babies crying lol

He slept pretty good last night though and is doing very well this morning. He was wide eyed from about 9am-12 and I've finally gotten him to sleep because he was getting tired.

It's the first day of summer so we are just relaxing for the day and getting a few things done here and there.
Yesteday Spencer and I finished up Doctor Who 7th season, MAN I LOVE this new companion and they ended it SO well! I can't wait until the thanksgiving/christmas special comes out!!!
If you've never watched Doctor Who, you just must! It's on Netflix except for most or all of 7th season. It just makes me day along with Ellen of course who is sadly over for the summer so it's just all re runs.

Have a wonderful day! On a random note congrats to Suki, she had her baby girl yesterday night =]