Reasons

I have so much to say like I said before but I forgot my paper so this is just going to be a lot of rambling!!

I know I am constantly telling you how much I love my life! It’s the truth though so why not express it and tell it to the whole world!!! =]

I can honestly say sense Christmas I have been none stop happy! This is for several reasons of course. Now my life isn’t perfect, I still get frustrated with things and angry and get down but not for very long. I don’t let myself wallow in it.

Reasons why I am happy:

1. I am a member of this AMAZING gospel, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saint!
2. Then daily prayer that keeps me holding on, asking questions, and getting answers to situations.
3. I have wonderful Fiancé that is always there for me whenever and is very loving.
4. My mother, she is simply awesome. She boosts up my energy, excitement, and happiness more every time I talk to her!
5. I have friends that mean the world to me and are constantly there for me which I’d name some but I don’t want to accidently leave anyone out
6.  And myself, it sounds weird but I was thinking about everything that happened today and how there was a choice I made and it was a good one. And I made that choice. And I followed through with it. And I made someone smile! I can make a difference and that is awesome but yes sometimes a lot of pressure.
7. I love my siblings, they mean well and I love them for that.
8. Kinesiology...it's about getting your body in harmony. It’s made a HUGE difference.

Lying there slipping in and out of consciousness; I am numb to the world.

My brain is shutting down and I am entering dreamland

The place where anything can happen

As a dream starts up

I am in aw by all the colors.

Then it turns dark, black

No more warmth or happiness

But this dreamland is the place everyone talks about

It’s the place everyone wants to go to

This land can change in an instant

Without warning

The only happiness it contains

Is the option to awake and realize

It was all a dream

You can leave that land

All the fears that may come

But the real world is inescapable

Make your choices wisely.

That was a far fetch but I wanted to try to write a poem. This is NOT what I was going with but on little time to prepare and loss for words this is what I came up with.

Yesterday in Pearl of Great Price class someone talked about how close someone was to the gospel. And if you believe it but don’t accept the gospel, that it’s the worse thing known to man. Then I thought of an opposite situation. I ended up writing a story about, its pretty darn good if I do say so myself.

Basically I had this boyfriend in 2008 I want to say. His name was Taft. We didn’t date long but we knew the struggles we both had in life. One I knew was he knew he should serve a mission but he wanted to do it by choice not because he HAD to. We broke up and didn’t talk much with each other. About a year later I get a texted from a mutual friend saying Taft died in a car accident.

We weren’t super close but I remember running into him at Macey’s and we had a bad ending but when we made eye contact I knew all was over. The past in the past but we didn’t talk.

I went to the funeral and was shocked at all I learned. He had changed and went to the Bishop. He rotated his life around and filled out his mission papers. He was waiting for a response and had talked to the Bishop about how it was taking so long.

Now you see why, his mission was to change to be a better person and want to go on a mission. He didn’t have to actually go on that mission. It was just crazy to me.

And his cousin, Dallin, had a dream about Taft getting into a car accident. (They were best friends) but it prepared him for what was going to happen in reality.

I didn’t mean this to connect back into my so called dream poem but it does. We don’t know exactly what all dreams mean. It could be helping you for a soon to happen event, just me crazy thoughts through out the day, it could be warnings, or answers to your prayers. I look at it the way I think it is. They always fascinate me.

Back to the Taft situation. I always wonder what happened in that car; their thoughts, where they were going. It’s one of the first people I want to talk to and ask questions. It’s totally random but I am just very curious. This death was really hard for me at first. I struggled but in the long end prayer got me through it all. Next to a lot of other things. I know the Lord is always watching over me.

I know I am making the right choices by how my life is. I’ve never been so happy. All the things I need are falling into place by weird connections my friends have. It just amazes me and I am so very grateful! I can’t express it enough =]

I believe I will stop here for now. Once again this is NOT what I was wanting to write about but it should do for this entry haha

Enjoy