Be ready

As I ended my last day of 2015 I honestly never thought I would be where or how I am today. The key is waiting for that moment that you choose and decide to change. Figuring out what needs to end and what needs to begin and being ready to make that change.
Be ready! For me it's usually a feeling that comes and I know it's time for me to fix whatever is broken.
And the last few months I've made some pretty great choices that are changing my life for the better.
1. Feeling so messed up about not being the person I was supposed to be from bad choices I made and then feeling the need to move away from it all... and everything falling into place to be able to move away from it all to beautiful Oregon to new adventures
2. When the past came back to find me and choosing to not fall back into old habits and finally standing up and sticking to the new decision I had made and promised to God
3. Making excuses to not work out because it was easy but then physically experiencing pain so bad that once I was better I felt I needed to do more to keep myself healthy as much as I could to keep from experiencing that pain again
4. Not feeling the way I think I should feel and making the decision to find materials to help me realize the things I need to work on and change to finally feel the way I should about all the loved ones around me

I will always be a work in progress but that's a part of life. Making mistakes and learning and growing from them.
Finding what works and when.
For example I never thought evening workouts would be my thing but it turns out that finally making that decision to start in the evenings might have made me find a love for working out and I rarely ever think of giving up or using excuses not to do my work out. When I finished my workout for the last time in 2015 I felt SO proud of myself! I have come so far. Farther then I ever realized I could and thinking how come I didn't find this love sooner. It changed my life and is still continuing to change my life. (The right music can sure help you keep going when your about to quit too)
I can't wait to see what 2016 brings to me and how I will be by next new years!
I'm so grateful for the people I've met these last few months and I honestly wouldn't be where I am without their support and love especially in my moments of doubt.
And thankful for my loving husband and two amazing boys that show so much love for me and keep me going everyday!
Here's to the new year full of love, laughter, exercise, and new experiences with my family and new friends!
And for once maybe just living life without worry or caring what other people think of me.... it's a hard habit to break


quotes:

"You are under no obligation to be the same person you were five minutes ago."
"I just woke up one day and decided I didn't want to feel like this anymore so I changed."
"Life is about change. Sometimes it's painful. sometimes its beautiful. but must of the time, its both."
"You are one decision away from a totally different life."