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Well Spencer and I have been married fo 4 months and 2 days so far. To be honest marriage is not like the disney fairy tale movies. But its wonderful in its on way and different for every couple. Each have their own challanges and it takes time to figure things out and communicate better with one another.
But Spencer is my Prince Charming or as I call him My Superman. =]
Spencer will be done with his internship in November and has a job lined up after its over and its almost just down the street from where his internship is at. He has been taking 3 classes. He has a class every morning at 7:40am so we get up at 6:30 and I make him lunch and leave a post it note in there for him. =] Then I take him to school. After class he walks to work and then walks home after work on most days to get some exercise in. He has one class at night on tuesday and thursday from 6:40-8:10pm
Holly, I get up at 630 like I said then when I get home I eat breakfast, go for a short run, do dishes, clean up anything that needs to be, shower, read my scriptures, and work on typing up things for a friend. =] Then off I go to work at 11:30am-5pm. I have class every tuesday and thursday night at 820-920pm.

Life is busy but after work and dinner we try to get out and do things besides watch tv or stay in the house.

I've also read a book thats been helping me organize the house more and get rid of things that are not important. I think I did a pretty good job. So now I just do the daily tasks and weekly tasks to not let it get messy. And maybe I'm not really doing that well but I feel that I am doing good, a lot better than I have been doing.

I need to make married couple friends thats for sure. We do have A LOT of friends that are getting married or just got married so thats exciting.
Including my sister, Stephanie, who is getting married to Rick on December 17th so yay!!

Just a lot of things going on. Like the title says No Comment. I couldnt narrow this down to one thing. Except possibly to my new favorite song Drift By: Emily Osment   I was curious about the Abcfamily movie called Cyberbulling. It was kind of cheesy acting BUT the point came across and I will admit even made me cry. The song Drift was in there and it just reminds you that people are like a puzzle and there are some that are falling apart inside and you may never know.

I would like one day to have a job: I enjoy, pays well, and that keeps me at least halfway busy.... Someday

For now Spencer and I talk about ideas for future jobs of our own like the Bookstore I have talked about. Our newest idea which I love!!! Is going around to all sorts of jobs for a week each to learn how its done and why they do what they do.
Because you hear people complaining all the time like why dont they just do that or not do that. Well there is probably a reason so we'd have a journlist with us and try to get connections to know how big and small businesses run and write about them. And have people ask us questions and we will find out the answer.
I think its brilliant!!! Because than we would get the answer straight from the source and maybe then understand why they do what they do.
Example: Trains. I complain about how they stop sometiems for 20 minutes and how they pass by at the most inconvnient times. So I would want to know why they have to stop and do they have a schedule or do they go whenever it is convenient for them? Because 5pm is NOT the time to be passing by so do they try to avoid it or do they not care.
It would be nice to find out.
What do you think???
I think it would be really fun and you would learn lots!! Just need to know how to get that idea started.

Next word of busniess...its Fall, well sort of. I am FREEZING in the mornings because it doesnt get semi nice until about 11am from what I can tell. Then it gets dark super fast which is fine.

One day were going to have enough money to go on a nice LONG vacation. To see all the people we intend to see for example: California, Michigan, Iowa, Illinois, Colorado, Nebraksa, Alaska, New York......  =]

I would love to do it before a child came into our life but I kind of think that may not happen especially wth the job I have right now. I cant take that much time off. But it would be fun with a kid or two later on in life but in some states thats too many years later and some people I want to see like my Grandpa and Grandma's might not be around that long. Spencer has only met one Grandma so far.

It's getting colder and colder in our house lately...I would like to turn on our heater sometime soon but for now I have my little one.

OHHH on a side note I am teaching the lesson in Relief Society on Sunday....first time I have EVER taught a lesson so I'm REALLY nervous. It's a great lesson I just hope I know enough about it to give it my all. I mean I am only 20 so its not surprising that I havent taught a lesson yet.

I would like to end with my love for Spencer, my husband.....
Thank you for always being there for me
Thank you for dealing with my up and down moods
Thank you for letting me hug you and hugging my back just because I want a hug
Thank you for your wonderful Spirit that you bring to our home
Thank you for being worthy to take me to the Temple
Thank you for helping around the house
Thank you for keeping me warm at night when I am cold
Thank you for making me laugh when I really dont want to
Thank you for teaching me the things that you know
Thank you for the wonderful support you give me everyday
Thank you for forgiving me when I got upset or made a mistake
Thank you for being my Superman/Superhero
Thank you for loving me enough
Thank you

I love you always and forever and ALL eternity!!! <3

Drop Dead Diva

I’ve been watching this show called Drop Dead Diva. In short Deb had a super model body and died but in heaven hit the return button and came back to earth but into Jane’s body, a lawyer. Jane is a bigger girl and didn’t really have a diet or fashion since. Jane had hired Grayson, Debs boyfriend, when Deb had passed away. Jane is Deb and so she wishes she could tell Grayson that she is alive but in reality its just Deb’s soul, she looks nothing like her. She is holding on to the past.

This one episode I watched this morning was about a guy who everyone thought had died in a plane crash 9 years ago but they never found a body. The wife had a son while he was gone and later fell in love with another man and she wanted a divorce from her old husband. During the trial her husband showed up. He wanted to know his son but she had never told their son about his real father. She didn’t want to mess up his “new” family. So eventually the husband realized that he needed to move on in life because it was time to let it all go.

Then I decided to write a blog on moving forward in life. This isn’t going to turn out like my original plan but it’s something to blog about.

When you are becoming a teenager you have to let go of your childish acts. You need to grow up and take hold of who you are becoming to be. Even though holding on to your old self is a lot more comforting you just don’t really have a choice.

The next one is going from High School to College. You have to now rely on yourself and not hope your parents help you all the way. You have to become another person and be more like a grown up. Making bigger decisions and taking things seriously.

Finally the biggest one of all, I think is becoming a wife/husband. You now have to think about two people, not just yourself. You aren’t a single person anymore. I think that is the hardest thing to let go of. Your life has to change. You need to let go of the past. You’re moving on to a different chapter and not everything can come with you. I think this is the best change ever but sometimes is a challenge. You need to work together with your partner for the rest of your life. You need to both be on the same page. You need to care for their feelings and take care of one another. I am glad I made that decision to change and let the past fall away.

You can also include becoming a mother/father. You now have little ones to take care of and teach all things to. You need to protect them and be examples. Now I know I occasionally will think there is no way I could do all that. But once you have that child your world just automatically changes. They rely on you to keep them alive. I know that it’s something I could do because of the partnership I created with my spouse and the things I’ve learned from my parents and siblings. I think it will be the next wonderful change of moving to the next stage of life. Moving on and accepting the change.

The End =]

Let the past go because now is here!

Fall happenings

Alright I will man up to not complete my own workout challenge.

When you go on vacation it just kind of falls apart. Then when I returned I never felt good, kind of sick. But my sister has decided to do a September Workout Challenge. Starting tonight I will do a workout 5 days a week, weigh in once a week.

On there we can’t say our actually weight but here I will

Weight: 125

Goal: -8 to -10, mainly to become toned and healthy.

Last night I went and bought a scale because I couldn’t weight myself without one. When I set it to 0 and stepped on it, it read 125…. Impossible! I’ve always been 130-140. But it’s a new scale it can’t be wrong. During the time I wasn’t feeling so good I could only ever eat 1/3 of a meal and I never wanted sweets. That lasted for about two weeks. I was eating healthy and not over eating so that might have helped while I wasn’t working out. When we were in California we did walk a lot and occasionally now we will go shoot hoops or go for a walk.

I’m not sure I’ve talked about this but my face this past year or two has been really bad. I went into a face study but ended up dropping out. They gave me a cream for my face every night. It’s Dual Tropical Gel or something like that. It bleaches things so you have to be careful. It also DRIES out my face but in the past two or so weeks of using it my face seems to be healing quite nicely. =]

In the morning I just use body wash to wash off my face and then put some lotion on it, because like I said my face is DRY but it looks better!!

Those are just a few exciting things that have been happening to me lately. Another one is I’m falling more and more in love with my husband! =] He is just so kind to me, which is good. He just means the world to me.

Next comes fall semester of school…. NOT looking forward to it but I’ll be done in December and I’m only taking two classes. 1. is a 40 hour internship at my work so that’s easy, I won’t get paid for those hours but that’s okay. 2. Is a computer IT class which is every Tuesday and Thursday night from 8:20pm-9:20pm.

Not much but soon I’ll finally be done with it all unless I decided to go back to school in the future. To be honest I am a little excited about having a class because then its something else to do besides work.

If you remember awhile back how I would always talk about Pinterest, well I finally actually became a member so I can pin my own things. =] 

It always makes me want to be SO creative but 1. Our house is too small for now 2. Most things are for kids and we don’t have any right now 3. You need to buy things to make the ideas so I’m not sure I have money for all of that

Another note, we were going to buy a kitten but our Landlord said we can’t have pets. That was a burst of the bubble; I was super excited about that. Oh well maybe when we actually have a home or something.

We are all done with Doctor Who for now =[ BUT I’ve been watching Drop Dead Diva and Charmed occasionally. I’m not sure what else to do. Like I said earlier, we’ve been getting out of the house most days after work to go do something other then watch TV.

Life sure is crazy, so many people are changing. Not always for good but it’s crazy to see how people have turned out so far. Most of them not the way you thought they would.

You know on TV shows how when your married you always have this other married couple you are like best friends with and you guys hang out a lot?

Well I’m looking forward to finding a couple like that soon. It’d be nice to both have someone to hang out with besides ourselves on occasion. We are in a Ward where there are a lot of newly married couples but I don’t know any of them enough yet to know if any of us would connect. It’s probably my own fault because I don’t talk to anyone ever unless they come up to me. Lol Just terrible I know. Eventually we’ll find those friends we’ll want to get to together with every now and then. It would be nice that’s for sure.

Switched at Birth and Pretty Little Liars is also done for this time of the year. The Lying Game is a new one I’ve been watching. Also Greys anatomy is coming back soon too. I thought One Tree Hill was but I’m not sure it is anymore.

Lately my hands have been getting super dry! I can’t wait until the fall season!

I Love Fall because:

* Sweaters

* Starbucks Cider

* Blankets

* Heaters

* Never too cold or too hot

* Clothing styles

* Corn Mazes

* Colorful leaves

* The smell and the breeze

* All the holidays that follow the beginning of Fall

I tell you what it’s hard to keep up with the dishes and cleaning in the home. If I can get my act together with that soon then having kids is going to be worse. It’s not that I don’t have time its mostly I just don’t want to do it. I’m trying to get better though.

On a side note I’ve given up trying to make my eyebrows look good. I’d have to go into a salon to get them waxed once every two weeks and I just don’t have time for that. Yeah they look tacky but oh well that’s how they were when I was born. Deal with it! Occasionally I might go and get them fixed up depending on what’s going on though.

I’ve been known to always look ahead towards my future and wonder how it’s going to turn out. But you know what; I like how my life is now! =] It is simply wonderful and why rush to the future if my future is now =]

Month later....

Hello!

Yes I know I’ve been gone for sometime but honestly I didn’t have the motivation to write a blog or the thoughts to write about.

August 6^th Spencer and I had our reception in Tooele, Utah. Suki, and Mariah came out with us and spent the night at my parents house. Suki helped do my hair and make up for the reception and all turned out great. The decorations and food all turned out fabulous! Not a lot of people showed up, especially high school/college friend wise. That’s a little sad but I completely understand why so no worries. We had more people come then I thought though but not enough people who wanted to dance = [and I REALLY wanted to have lots of people dancing at my reception. It’s alright; at least we got our couple dance and father daughter dance. Thanks for my lovely bridesmaids and Groomsman that came and family =]

Once it was all done we hurried up and packed the car up and off to Cedar City, Utah we went to sleep before the long drive to California. The hotel was AMAZING; it was at a Marriott I believe.

Then at 6am we went down for a free breakfast and off we went. The drive to California honestly wasn’t too bad. Around 1pm I think we arrived at Sunset Beach, California. Our condo was RIGHT by the beach =] It was beautiful. (if you want to see pictures go on my facebook page)

Now we relaxed some but also had some adventures. We got a few groceries at Wal-Mart for the week stay. We went to Disneyland for a day. It was very crowded, not too hot, and we went on about 6 rides. Another day we went to Hollywood and saw all the stars on the sidewalk and took a tour of celebrity homes and other places. Sadly I didn’t get to see the handprints in front of the Chinese thing because they were getting ready for the premiere that night for Final Destination 5 or something like that. Lame! After that we went to see this beautiful garden (can’t remember the name), it wasn’t the best time of month to go because not many flowers were blooming anymore but it was fun.

Then we had a relaxing day were we rented movies, cleaned the condo, and watched TV! =] It was pretty nice but after awhile I got antsy and needed to seat out and get some sun. One night we went in the hot tub at the condo but it was more warm than hot. Thursday afternoon off we went to Palmdale! We arrived around 8pm I think and my parents were there and the rest of the Peacock family. Friday we went to six flags with some friends and I went on a ride called Goliath. Never again will I go on a ride like that. It was a roller coaster and it starts off with a 26 story drop! I screamed but not for long because it was so fast I couldn’t scream anymore. I clenched my teeth the whole time and closed my eyes. AHHHH you should have seen my face when they took the picture. Too bad we didn’t buy it. After that I stayed off the rides with my mom and we just followed the men around; my dad, Spencer, and Damien.

We ran into the other group that was with us later on and did some rides around there. We had some soft pretzels, drinks, pickles, and fun! Spencer won a tweety bird cape for me! It was a hot day for sure and around 6pm I think we left to head back to Palmdale. I was wiped! On Saturday we started getting ready for the Palmdale, CA reception. We helped decorate a little bit then Veronica and her sister Rachel helped me with makeup and my hair. It turned out very well. Then off to the reception. Not many people came at all. I was expected more people to show but there were a lot of church things going on that day. That one went by really fast; decorations and ice cream were great. Then off back to Palmdale for our last night in CA. =[ That night we took my parents to Charlie Browns, the craziest store every! =] Then Sunday morning we drove back to Utah, once again never felt like a super long drive. We didn’t hit ANY traffic until…. UTAH! =p

Once I came back to work, two days later I was working 730am-5pm while the other receptionist had her wedding/honeymoon! =] I did that until yesterday, Wednesday and it about killed me! I don’t see how people can work from 8-5; maybe it’s easier when you actually have things to do….. I finished about two books in those 6 days. Spencer and I finished Doctor Who last night and are all caught up so now I’m not sure what we are going to watch. Lol Sunday Jessica, J and his cousin came over for dinner that was pretty nice. Monday Spencer left work early and left a card for me on the door and some roses and had dinner made when I got home. Then on the bed was lots of roses with a ring pop =] He is so very good to me.

Now to be honest I haven’t really worked out the past 3 weeks BUT I haven’t been eaten much because I had a virus of some kind that wouldn’t let me eat more than 1/3 of a meal. Didn’t eat much sweets, and we went on walks occasionally especially in California. Now that I’m back to my normal work schedule I’m going to start back up again. Once I started working my new shift 7:30am to I think 2pm then I will workout after work, because by 2pm is when I have the right motivation to want to workout. =]

That may not start until next year for that schedule though.

It’s been HOT these past couple days and I’m just dying. But trying to just keep busy at work and do what I need to, which isn’t a lot.

A lot of my friends are already married or there wedding is coming up. It’s crazy! OH and Friday we saw Steve Salisbury before he headed off to Chicago. It was great to see him, sadly we received a flat tire (we were in Pleasant Grove) so we had to slowly drive back home the back way.

I am finally done with Thank you cards and MAN those can be frustrating. Lol

On Sunday I received a calling on the compassionate service committee for relief society. Then Tuesday Spencer received a call but he hasn’t been sustained yet so I can’t tell you until Sunday.  

Man have I been drained though. Now I need to get back into a normal route again. Maybe slightly alter my old route.

I dropped out of the Acne study and they gave me this cream to put on at night. It dries out my face and makes my face itch but oh well. I think it’s working…

Then my face has been kind of flaky and so have my upper arms around my shoulders. I just need to STOP ITCHING my face because then I get red spots all over.

This morning Spencer and I went to Denny’s for breakfast before work. It was nice to take it easy this morning.

That’s been my crazy life these past for weeks.

Career Path

Thanks to my husband and a good night’s sleep last night I think I’m ready…

He has been telling me I need to figure out a career that I’m going to love. I complain about the job I have because of boredom. I am tired of sitting at a desk all day answering phones that barely ring and doing things on the computer just to keep me entertained. I have played. Spider

Solitaire WAY

too much and play it in my mind sometimes.

I should LOVE what I do but I realized answer phones just isn’t my thing. Sitting at a desk the whole 5 ½ hours isn’t my thing.

My wish is to do something I love and not be too busy or too bored. Just be perfect in the middle.

Things I’ve always wanted to do:

1. Psychology of some sort
2. Elementary Teacher
3. Child care/nanny
4. Photography
5. Own a bookstore

I just don’t feel anything popping out to me right now. And 1, 2 are A LOT of schooling still to do.  Then 3, I have some schooling to take but not much, and some peoples kids drive me crazy so you would never know if you’d get lucky or not. Then 4 I love and you don’t have to go to school to be a professional, but I always struggled with understanding all of photography terms, then if you don’t get a lot of clients there won’t be much income. Now owning my own bookstore would be amazing BUT it cost money to start one up and we aren’t financially prepared for that.

What do I do?

Keep going to school somewhere until I figure it out?

Look around for jobs until I find one I like?

Stay at my current job as long as I can handle?

What I have started to do is pray for guidance in where I need to take my life/school/career.

I just feel so unaccomplished at work and there isn’t much I can do. I feel lonely because no one comes up to talk to me much. I go insane just listening to my voice. I love the people I work with. I ask for projects every now and then but it’s been kind of slow.

I mean I’ve always wanted to be a mom but we aren’t ready for that yet and that costs more money, you don’t earn income from being a mom. You get points for being a great parent and earn love but right now we need to save on money and get settled in and a little bit farther in our career choices. Some how jobs always seem to come up for me when I need them so I know something will click.

I am kind of thinking I need to go to school still but that would be expensive and we don’t want to take out a loan unless we HAVE to. I have two classes left at LDS Business College then I’ll be done in December.

Oh the joys of growing up! =] I just want to love everything about where I work and feel accomplished but not stressed. That’s probably everyone’s dream.

Wish me Luck, I’m not sure where to start.

Jessica Sue Haworth (Nielsen)

Yesterday I went over to my sister Jessica’s house to get some ribbon. Now my sister has been a single mother for about a year and a half, it will be 2 years in September. Yesterday it struck me that she was a single mother. I knew she was but for some reason it didn’t hit me until then. (yes i know i'm a little slow)The overwhelming love I had for her at the random moment was amazing. I realized how incredible she is. She has been through hell and back and if you looked at her now you’d never know. She has a 4 year old boy, Jerimiah, who we call J or JJ. He is an incredible little boy and I believe it’s because of the love Jessica has shown him and the things she has taught him. I don’t know if I EVER could be a single mother. I’m sure she never thought she would be either but she has shown people that it is possible to raise a child on your own if the circumstances call for it.

While we were standing there talking I just looked around and I’ve seen how much she has accomplished. She has raised a handsome little boy who is just hilarious, smart, and talkative. She has a great job were she loves (now that giggle giggle is gone) the people she works with and the job itself. She also has this home that’s organized, beautiful, lived in, and has the spirit dwelling in it. She makes time for the important things. Jessica works out when she can, takes care of a 4 year old, watches some of her favorite shows/movies, cooks, works, cleans the house, does the yard work, plays with J, sews projects, and even has time to blog about her life. Now isn’t that incredible?

I know our parents have helped her a lot with the car and household things here and there. For the most part she has done it on her own with help from various people once in awhile.

But she is a great example to me and I hope that I am as great of a mother one day as she is now.

Thank you!

Side note: Can you believe she trusts me to watch Jerimiah sometimes. Crazy I know!

Jessica & Jerimiah

Lunchtime and other thoughts

Loneliness is the best way to describe lunch time at work.

Pretty much EVERYONE leaves so I’m left all by myself.

1. I have to man the phones
2. I don’t get asked to go out to eat with everyone because I have to stay behind.
3. I am left with customers that want to talk to someone so they yell at me because no one is answering. I try to explain it’s lunch time here so they are at lunch (WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO!!!)
4. All of my break people have left and I need to use the restroom… but there is no one to take over for me while I run to the bathroom, so then I have to try to hold it the best I can. (doesn’t seem right to me, but I asked my boss and she said if no one is available I can go and leave the desk for a minute. Phew)

I was once told that not everyone goes to lunch at the same time… pretty much a lie. Trust me I know, I am here when I try to get a hold of people and NO ONE ANSWERS! I’ve decided that answering telephones isn’t really my thing, but filing and computer stuff isn’t too bad. I can’t wait until I get my dream job “my own library” =]

I thought it weird to email my boss and ask her but I need to know what I do when no one is here to take over for me for a few minutes. (Because I was told I’m not allowed to leave my desk area)

I love my job but there are a few things that could be tweaked. Man if I was pregnant here I could only imagine because I already go to the bathroom enough as it is. Lol

On a different note working out is going pretty good. =] I am pretty proud of myself for sticking with it. I had people place bets on how long I’d last, and I want to win and show them I can do the whole 9 weeks (and even longer)! I want to feel good about myself but I don’t want to be pushed too hard, Spencer is pretty good at making sure I do it.

I know about 20 people engaged, it’s insane, but awesome! Like my mom said “Love is in the air” it sure seems like it. <3 Shall I name them all?

Married life is great, we are learning more and more about each other and it’s a great experience. I have this one friend of mine named Julia, who was married about a year ago and she has been helpful with some advice every now and then. She is soon to have a baby girl =]

The weather is just beautiful today =] It’s cloudy and cool, not too cold and not too hot. I LOVE it! It’s FRIDAY!

I love just sitting here and typing all the random thoughts that come to my mind…

There are SO many things I am looking forward to in my future! =]

BUT I need to try and focus better on the here and now. Sometimes I am dreaming so much about the future that I miss the things I should be grateful for that are RIGHT in front of me. I need to slow down a bit and take a step back.

One thing I love, a tradition Spencer and I have kind of started is every night from about 9-10pm we watch an episode of Doctor Who! =] It’s my new favorite show thanks to the Peacock Family haha

You know what also BOGGLES my mind is how we hear ourselves different than other people hear us. So when you go back and listen to a recording of yourself you are taken back by the sound. Am I right? I kind of like what I hear rather than what others hear but oh well you get over it.

WE’RE GOING CAMPING ON PIONEER WEEKEND!!! =] I’m really excited; now we just have to make sure we covered all the holes in our air mattress.

1. We kind of hope some other people will come camping too but if not it’s okay.
2. We still need to figure out where. Far enough away from the city but close enough so we don’t have a super long travel time to get there and back.

I am kind of excited which is unusual because I hate camping but it’s been awhile.

Pros:

1. Stories around the camp fire
2. S’mores & yummy snacks
3. Cozy warm sleeping bags to keep me warm =]
4. A husband to also keep me warm
5. Spending time with nature
6. Hopefully taking beautiful pictures =]

Cons:

1. No showering (unless there is a lake to take a quick dip in )
2. No bathrooms (unless the camping area has port a potties, which I hope)
3. No TV for my workout DVD’s (maybe we’ll just go hiking and running to still keep on schedule with my workouts.)

How exciting =]

Off I go to keep myself busy at work. haha