The emotions of a Mother

As individuals we always have at least one of "those days" where life just is not going well. But I feel once you become a mother you might have more of these lol I mean now you are responsible for keeping your babies alive daily!

I was watching an episode of How I met your Mother Season 8 episode 13: Band or DJ?
and there is a line where Lily says "Sometimes I wish I wasn't a mother and would pack a bag and leave and never come back" (not exact quote)
And it got me thinking... I've had this thought once or twice before. I hate to admit it but i'm sure you guys have had the thought at least once in your life time if not you i'm sure you will one day.

Mixed with maybe a bad day where your kid is just doing EVERYTHING to push your buttons or screaming/crying ALL day or you are just super emotional (I mean we are women lol) It could be for the littlest thing. You may notice I never post pictures of my kids crying or throwing a tantrum and that's because those are the things I don't want to dwell on or remember in the future, I want to remember all their sweet moments and smiling faces. (that's just me, doesn't mean your a bad person if you post those types of pictures)

There are just those days when you realize your life will never be the same as it used to be. I hate to say "your life is over" but in a way it is, more like your just ending a chapter of your life and starting a new one. Sometimes I wish I could just go travel or go out dancing late at night with my friends or just crazy things like that but I can't do that. But that's okay!

My point is I've had a day(s) like this but then there are those amazing days when you feel SO blessed! When you look at your children and can not believe that you grew those sweet babies inside you and now you are helping them learn new things and grow. And then you are SO proud of them because you see them doing something you have been trying to teach them. Or those silly things you realize they learned just because little kids watch everything you do.

Being a parent and growing up is not an easy task. It is THEE hardest job I've ever had but its THEE most amazing job I've ever had and I would never give it up. It has taught me SO much and there have been lots of ups and downs but the love I have for my children is SO great!

Just yesterday I was thinking that I love my kids so much that i'm always giving them LOTS of kisses. And I realized that's STILL not enough to express how much I love them. I just want to squeeze them and hold them ALL day and night!

I've always wanted to be a mother but no matter how many times I had been told motherhood is hard I still would of made the choice I made. And it still doesn't prepare you for all the emotions you feel once you become a mother. 

But I have been blessed with an AMAZING husband who is the BEST Father to our little boys.
Isaac is my sweet loving boy who loves to laugh and Jackson is pretty chill (too young to know his personality just yet)

my favorite picture of us together, like 3 weeks before I got pregnant lol

my 18 month old Isaac

my super cute 1 month old

they are bonding =]

my boys =]